I wake up thinking od you and go to sleep thinking of you. I'll forever miss you and forever feel a deep whole in my heart. Zoe has her 1st school dance coming up. And I asked your dad if he can go with her in honor of you. I cannot help myself but to sit here and cry. You had told me in the feature that would be the only occasion you would wear a suit in. Not even out wedding unfortunately you'll be watching them both up from heaven.  I'm so, so, sorry life isn't fair you didn't deserve to get your life taken from you. I love you forever.

2025
It's a new year but the spark and light In life is gone. We miss you so much. We use to love New Years Eve. Now I just sit down and cry as I hear fireworks going off all around me . I think about you every single day. Not a day goes by that your not on my mind. I'll love you forever amd always . I'll never understand why you where taken so young. Life isn't fair you not being here raising our kids together isn't fair. It's a forever agonizing pain until we reunite again.

Christmas Eve 
Holidays aren't the same without you here to be living beside us doing our late night shopping.  The light and joy that was here while you where alive is now and forever will be gone. Im trying my best to feel the joy for our kids. But its a face I put up for them. Becuse the hard-core truth is im miserable since you toke your last breath. Everything changed I couldn't even help put up Christmas decorations last year and again this year. Becuse of the hurt and pain of memories seeing you so happy hanging up the garland around the house. Or helping your dad fix a Christmas light bulb on the huge Chfistmas tree. My heart literally hurts every single day but Christmas always crushes my soul just being reminded of your smile. I love you Anthony and I will always love you . Merry Christmas to my angel up in heaven.

Thanksgiving 2024
Isn't what it use to be while you where still alive.  The joy and excitement of holidays is all gone. The fun in cooking food on Thanksgiving seeing you sitting down buttering your bread.  Or making your nasty ham with your orange slices and Pina. I miss you ill forever and ever miss you.

Halloween  wasent Halloween 
As I followed our kids up driveways I just kept feeling this feeling of disbelief and pure unfairness   I see other dads with there kids and thought to myself why aren't you here you would have been holding there hands walking up with them . I just don't understand how unfair life can be. Then at night once our kids were asleep I had two big Halloween buckets in front of me. And I couldn't stop crying looking at the kit kats and recces.  Reminded me so much of you. Ill forever miss you.

Happy Heavenly 34th Birthday.  This is so very devastating and bizarre. Your suppose to be alive were suppose to be in Vegas on the top suit floor. I was suppose to dance for you as you sat on the chair smoking a Cuban cigar like you always wanted me too.  This is a nightmare in hell that I cannot wake up from. I miss your smile today I couldn't take the image of you looking at the huge tomahawk steak as the waiter placed the plate in front of you. Your eyes showed pure happiness I miss you so much. That my body hurts and urns for you. Our kids are so sadden and that breaks my heart. Today Zoe asked me why are you there buried.  What do I answer to our 4 year old daughter. Happy Heavenly Birthday ill love you forever 💓.

Your Birthday is on Friday and I cannot hold back tears. You wanted to badly to one day rent out at least for two nights the top suit at the Cosmopolitan.  I will now have to one day fulfill your wish once our kids are twenty one. Its shattering you won't be there with us celebrating Zoe and ajs milestones. The memory of you makes me cry at times smile somtimes but it mostly breaks my heart . Ill love you forever.

Its the most simplest things I miss about you the most. How you secretly payed attention to small details. And how you cared . You'll never ever know how much you mean to us. And how I'm trying my best to live for our babies.  But some days I don't wish to exist. Thats how much pain I'm in from losing you. Your the love of my life I really thought we had forever

I miss you so much. You not being there to pickup Zoe from TK. Was reality that your seriously gone. You looked forward to that so much. We love you amd think about you everyday.  Life isn't fair.

Yesterday I enrolled Zoe into TK and the experience was gut wrenching. You weren't there beside me telling me not to be a big baby. Becuse we've been waiting for this day to come.  And having to write on parent #2 deceased was so horrible. I got into my car and cried and cried.  I couldn't belive this is out reality. I remember us talking about dropping her off at her 1st day of school and you told me . You where going to tell her okay go have fun and no boyfriends. And I told you your going to cry your eyes out as soon as you get inside the truck. And you told me shut up. I
With a smirk on your face. I  knew you so well.

Our meet and greet . I miss you so much everyday my heart aches in pain. Ill never understand how life decide this fate for you.  You had so much more to love for. We miss your smile and huge hugs. We miss you babe

A few minutes ago I was asleep and woke up to hearing Zoe crying beside my bed. She was wiping away her tears with her tiny hand. And telling me she wants you. I grabbed her and layed her beside me feeling her little chest pump.  Broke me into a million pieces.  Its not fair why her and Aj have to know what life is without you. It's not fair that your gone! Your life was stolen from you . And all Zoe wants is for you to hold her. Its just devastating pain . We miss you and love you. Always Anthony Always

Last night I couldn't sleep kept thinking about you like I do every night. But I literally felt heartache you not sleeping beside me. Not seeing you mole on your back. Or your long hair flow down you back. Your smell and mostly your touch. I miss you and hurts so much living life without you. I still feel as if im existing not living. Zoe ask for your every single night. Its so very sad. And little Aj says nighhht daddiiii

Today we went to court for the preliminary hearing our family and friends were so heartbroken to hear, detail by detail how you were murder. We had to see the 4 monsters that took your life away. Always know that we will always fight for Justice. We love you so much Anthony and we miss you. It was specially hard for your parents and for Crystal. I wish I could take the horrible pain that Crystal feels not having you here with us. She loves you so much Anthony we all do please give us all the strength to get through the other half of the preliminary hearing🙏🏼

I truly miss you so very much. My heart will never be the same. We love you always .

Today May 31, 2024. It has been one year since they took you away from your kids and your wife and all of us. I love you so much our hearts are broken. We have tried to move on day by day but no matter what we go to sleep with you in our minds and we wake up with you in our thoughts . it’s been so difficult specially for Crystal.  The kids ask for you every day they want their daddy’ Crystal has been such a strong woman throughout this whole year but there’s times that I see her so swollen when she wakes up because in the middle of the night when the kids and I’m asleep , she goes to the garage and cries but in front of the kids she’s hold her composure. I miss you so much Anthony please watch over us. Specially, Crystal and the kids forever in our hearts.🙏🏼❤️

Next week 
Will be 1 year since your life was taken from you. Aj loves trains just like you did. Your obsession with trains is just like his. If only you where here to play with him and take him to the train store. 

And Zoe 
Let me tell you this little girl knows all her princesses. 
Remeber the last toy you bought them at the Disney store was a Pluto for zoe and Aj was still so small that I picked out a Toy Story towel.  Whitch is his absolute favorite now. 
You where an amazing daddy amazing. We miss you everyday 😢

Its been 11 months since you where taken from us. And the pain doesn't go away it will never ever go away. Please... always stay with out babies always guide them and protect them. They miss you so very much! Thank you for keeping an eye on them while they play outside. I know who you are and where you are. Always beside our babies. Love you babe and ill always love you Anthony you'll my forever soulmate. You know that.Life without you here will never be the same. And my heart hurts everyday .Its shattered everyday. I love you

Life update:
As of 3 weeks ago our daughter no longer uses diapers. Ill never forget the countless times you would be at work and you would pre order her diapers at the target pick up. As exhausted as you where you would go after work and pick up the order of her diapers. It didn't matter if you had to wait or not. A daddy like you there will never ever be another. The things you did for our babies. And as of last week. Zoe woke up to ask me to take her potty. She actually woke up and didn't pee on herself. Ms independence.  You would have been so proud of her and bought her a toy.  I know you too well.

Our first Easter without you we miss you and love you so much. Happy Heavenly Easter 🐣 🐰🙏🏼❤️😘

Easter 
Last year you worked all night and morning. The morning of Easter day you came home. Holding bags and bags of Easter decorations, eggs, candy, banners, little toys and ballons for our kids. Your face was lit so bright and happy. Ill never forget your smile as you walked thru thay door. Your mom told you you buy so many things. And you told her no hodas son para mis ninos. The little things you did to put a smile on our kids faces ill never forget and ill always be so thankful for. I love you babe. Ill always love you. 
Celebrating without you seems so unreal and unfair but for our kids happiness I try. Yesterday I took them to an Easter event our here in Bakersfield and broke my heart not to have you beside us. Enjoying activities and watching our Zoe get so excited to take a picture with the Easter bunny. While Aj was terrified. You would have told him andale xabron no tienes mido as you held him in your arms.
We love you babe
Happy Heavenly Easter 🐣

Today is Zoes 4th Birthday. I still remember the day she was born. You where so excited yet nervous to become a father. As I was pushing you cried because you held her head as she was halfway in this world. And the other half still inside me .Im so sorry your life was taken from you. You where an amazing father the best daddy to our kids. Thank you for all you did . We love you forever and always

To my  Valentine 
I miss hearing your voice and the way you use to tell me what do you want brat. 
I miss feeling so secure and protected when you where alive. 
I miss your smile
I miss your huge husband's hugs you use to give me not boyfriend hugs (our inside joke)
I miss our memory of our dog toy moment ( between us)
You'll always be my Valentine until we meet again in heaven .

Ps. 
Our 2 little Valentines miss you so much. They ask for you everyday

Today at work I scanned a Beef Jerky and I was overwhelmed with grief.  I  could feel my eyes tear up. And I quickly had to wipe away my tears. I remeber how much you loved your beef jerky. This doesn't get any easier. I miss you every single day. I love you forever .

Today I turn 32 the age you where when you died. I cant take your voice out of my head last year you called me exactly at midnight because you knew it was apart of my family tradition.  You called me while at work and sang Happy Birthday to me. Then you told me im an annoying brat.  But you love me so much and your thankful that im your wife and baby momma. And how blessed you where to have me as the mother of your kids. Ill never forget that.  I miss you and this birthday isn't HAPPY. The HAPPY inside me died the day you did. I love you and I miss you beyond words. Im so broken without you here beside us.

I started working last week. And I've always appreciated how much you worked to provide for our kids and me. But now that I am working it makes me appreciate you so much more and respect for you hustling for our family. Breaks my heart how we had plans for me to raise our kids and be a SAHM till Aj turned 5. We had so many plans that awaited our feature. I miss you and im so sorry that you didn't get the opportunity to live out your dreams.  Your always in our hearts and minds .

There has been no greater pain in my life than losing you. Its raining right now and its Thursday morning you would have been qt home with me and the kids. I remember the last time it rained qnd you went outside in shorts without socks or a shirt. You went inside your truck to get your vape. I stood by the door and told you get inside your going to get sick. Instead you looked at me and smiled and told me you felt so alive. As the rain rolled down on your face and body. I miss moments like this with you so much. My heart hurts everyday is so much pain and a constant mental battle. But im pushing myself forward for our kids. They need me more than ever . We miss you everday.  And love you so very much ❤

Trying to navigate life without you is a nightmare. Life isn't fair and what happened to you is just horrible you where so undeserving of the fait that was handed to you .Your the 1st thing I think about in the morning and the last thing I think about at night.  I pray to God everyday that you didn't suffer and that he immediately took you into his arms.  Your our Angel and we miss you every single day. Zoe amd Aj are always asking about you. Especially at night Zoe wakes up and tells me she wants you. Heartbreaking that all I can do I hug her and tell her one day many....many...years from now she'll see you and we will all be reunited like in the movie Coco.  
We love you so much. Hope im making you proud.

Its NYE and you won't be here to give me my NYE kiss at midnight or hug. Cant belive we won't count down together. And put our kids to bed at 9pm by doing them there own little celebration like we had talked about.
Your life was taken from you and I swear to you I will never understand why. 
We miss you everday and think about you always. 
One day ill give you your NYE kiss once again. Love you forever

Your Christmas decorations.  Your parents and me put up for you. So devastating yet it looked so beautiful.  We miss you every single day.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE IN HEAVEN BABE.
This was our 1sr Christmas we spent together. Years ago ...
And unfortunately you had to go into work but you managed to spend some time with me .You always did your best to make me smile. And being with you always brought me so much happiness. We all miss you so much babe. Every single day I facetimed your parents earlier and we where talking about memories that we had of you. Our lives have changed for the worse. And your absence is felt every single day. Im going to try my best to be strong for you today. But make sure you let our babies know your right beside them. And that you always got them in this life and the next. Vamos a pacar una triste Navidad sin ti. El amor de mi vida .

Zoe says Daddiii with so much pain in her little heart. Its heartbreaking. Never would have thought the kids and me would have to survive in this world without you here. Aj misses you whenever someone calls me he thinks its you and says da-da he doesnt understand.  He's too small. We love you so much never ever forget that. Justice for you is what we will get one day. I promise you Anthony. Ill go visit you on Thursday and set up your grave for Christmas. My heart aches for you because this isn't living its existing for our kids. I love you and ill always love you.

We are now in your favorite month and favorite holiday Christmas.  It is with so much sadness in me that I go the store and buy Christmas things for our kids. Ans your not next to me eagerly so happy with a huge smile on your face. Getting all sorts of festive things for our kids. Im not much of a Christmas person like you where putting up Christmas decorations in November.  But for our kids happiness I will be. And in your memory I will be . We miss you soo... much . Aching pain won't ever go away. I love you babe. How I wish you would be able to hold our kids and kiss them like you always did.

Hope im making you proud with all the new moves im making . I know you know ill always do whats best for our kids. And I'll always have you in mind and beside us. I continue to talk about you to our kids everyday.  Your memory will forever live on by me. Love you babe . Ill always love you. Ill keep on seeking justice for you!

November 3rd 2023. And cannot even begin to tell you how much Trick or Treating broke my heart this year. You not seeing your little Sally and Jack isn't fair. I dont understand life and I dont understand why your no longer here with us. I miss your smell and your touch. And your huge smile as you walked thru the door each morning. I miss how excited about life I felt with you and all of our future plans. Now that's all gone. The minute you died half of me left. Most of all I miss the way you held our kids and you constantly told them how much you loved them. We love you to infinity and beyond.

Its our 1st Halloween without you and its so difficult.  To try my best to be level headed and be courages everyday for our kids and get up. Halloween and every other holiday isn't the same without you here. There will forever be a huge void in my heart. Please take care of our babies. They miss you so much praying one day there little hearts dont hurt as much. Love you babe

We will all take a shot for you and with you. Missing you always your gone but never ever forgotten.

I miss you and think about you everyday. I love you always and forever. Thank you for my Ramon Ayala message. I got it and I understood what you where trying to tell me.  That's somthing only you and I would know about. So I know that was you. Your still here with us. Love you always until we reunite again 1 day.

Its your Birthday month September and your not here to go to Vegas like we had planned. Ill never understand why God allowed this to happen to you. Its not fair you had so much to live for. Especially so much to teach our babies. We miss you everyday and pray for you every night. Love you always

Our gender Reveal 2019. This pain will never go away. Ill always pray for you. I love you forever !

Not a day goes by that I dont think of you. This is a forever pain. Amd ill forever have an emptiness in my heart. We thought we had 40 more years together to create memories and grow old together. Instead I go to your grave everyday stand over your grave cry and pray for Justice for you. I love you forever .
ACZA

Its been 2 months since your life was taken away from you. We miss you everyday I cant shut my thoughts off. I pray for you everyday and ill always continue to. We love and miss you beyond measures.  Please talk to our babies visit them in there dreams. They miss you so much they have there days where they cry alot. I know they want Daddy. Breaks my heart for our babies. 

I had a personalized wallet made for you. On Zoes behalf you cried and said it was the most amazing gift to have ever been gifted to you. Somthing that came from your baby. You'll forever be with us babe. We love you!

To say I miss you is a understatement.  Life changed in a matter of seconds for alot of us. And it will never ever be the same without you here beside me raising our babies. I'm so sorry your gone. Ill forever love you.

Zoe was 3 months old here . 
May 2020
Miss you always 

You'll forever be in our hearts. Visiting Spirit Halloween stores as soon as they open.  Wont be the same without you. We miss you so much. 

Its been 1 month and 5 days since you've died. And although I buried you and told you ill see you soon. Becuse I couldn't say goodbye to you. I feel so devastated and still in shock. You didn't deserve to die the way you did. You where such a good person and the best Daddy to our kids. Im going to miss our late night massages and conversations as our kids where asleep.  Justice for you is what ill always pray for. You where taken to soon from your family. We love you forever ACZA

I will always love you. Wait for me up in heaven please when my time comes. Scoop me up and take me with you. So our love can blossom to eternity 

AJ and his favorite angel 👼🏻…….Daddy❤️

Una tortillita para mi papa que esta en el cielo cuidandome de alla 🙏🏼 Zoe sings this song to her daddy all the time since he passed 

A beautiful memory when you found out you were having a baby boy 

On your gender reveal when you found out you were having a boy. You were in disbelief and full of joy such a happy memory 

🙏🏼❤️🕊️ I love and miss you dearly 

We miss you so much and we will forever live in agony. We will always celebrate the holidays in your memory. Especially Christmas that was your favorite. 

Always with his family. They were his pride and joy ❤️

Zoe had so much fun with daddy at this pumpkin patch. Daddy was teaching her how to throw the rings. 

Thank you Anthony for being part of our family. I loved you like my own son. You always participated in every holiday or event that he had. The memories that we created with you will forever live in our ❤️ 🙏🏼🕊️

This was true love. Only a hand full of people get  to experience the type of love and dedication they had for one another. 

We lost two angels within 26 hours 
Two great men that worked so hard to provide for their kids and wife’s. Two kind hearted man that would move mountains to make sure their family’s had everything they needed. We love you 🕊️Eric Carmona 30 and Anthony 32 I remember we were at a Christmas pajama party at  my sister Veronica’s house Eric was so excited to take a picture with Anthony he said he was like a huge teddy bear. Eric loved him so much. Goodbye my two beautiful angels we love you both may you RIP🕊️🕊️

Berry white was one of the most genuine  and generous person that I knew. If you needed something  he was there in a heartbeat. This photo is from a trip we took out to a river near Malibu. I miss you big guy.

Barry white I met you in 2008 and became really good friends I remember dropping you off to your house after school riding with you in the car laughing and making jokes always would see you with your wife at target met your beautiful daughter and remember your smile when I would yell your name at the store I will miss you not bumping into you at the store and talking for a while I will miss you I hope your in heaving smiling with the lord and looking over your family 🤍🤍love you Barry white

You loved my daughter so much I remember for her 30th Birthday. You came at 5am to my house and you blew up a lot of balloons for her. As tired as you where from working a long shift . You made the effort and made her birthday special.She was so surprised I remember the huge hug she gave you.You’ll forever live in our hearts. We love you

Baby Aj and Daddy inside the NICU. Daddy worked and right after work he went straight to the hospital.  To visit our baby boy he had a difficult time leaving him there alone. Regardless he stayed for hours and hours visiting feeding, touching , and nurturing our son. Thank you for being you and being an AMAZING DADDY.

Remembering the last time you went to Las Vegas. with the love of your life before you guys got pregnant with Zoe.

Anthony holding our 1st born Zoe. He was so excited and nervous to become a dad. He was the best daddy to our kids. Always put them before anyone and always spoiled them.  We love you forever.

I loved the way that no matter what you always participated in Zoe’s school activities. As exhausted as you where from working. You showed up and had a smile on your face for your kids. And even on the days where you came out from work 16 or 20 hours you would go straight to her school event. You made sure she knew that daddy was there for her. And she would get so happy to see you. She would extend her arms and run to you.

My angels… please watch over me like always. My heart is full of memories with you. I miss you. 

Best friends Reunited. Watch over us ❤️

I’m speechless my heart breaks for his love ones.. Anthony will be missed. He was an amazing person..  

OBITUARY

Anthony Rivas

September 27, 1990 – May 31, 2023

Pierce Brothers Valhalla Memorial Park and Mortuary

Show your support

Add a Memory

Share Obituary

Get Reminders

Past Services

Visitation

Funeral Service

Graveside Service