Two years have quickly passed, but our hearts still ache like it was yesterday. We have to start getting used to the idea of actually losing you. It's easy to say, but very, very difficult to do. Ken, I still cry for you, like the day it happened. My heart is still so heavy with grief, that I don't feel like the same person I was when you were here. I was reading a text from you the other day, and I just started talking like you were in the room with me, I walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror and said I wish you were here with me right now, just then the light in the closet behind me went on, I saw it in the mirror. For some reason, it didn't scare me and I wasn't afraid, I just kept talking and said I know you can hear me babe, so I just want to say that I love you and we all miss you so much. I went to look in the closet, I looked up at the light and it went off. I walked back into the room, sat on the bed and just smiled, I felt comforted. 
It made me feel good to know that you're here at the house too. 
It's been a heart-breaking two years without you, Ken. I'm still not ready to let you go babe. Will I, or could I ever, probably not, because you were such a huge part of our everyday lives. Our holiday is coming up and I know it's gonna hurt to be another year older without you. We'll all have a drink and a smoke for both of us. Like I said before baby, until were smoking and joking together again babe. We love you always, Roxanne

The days just seem to pass 1 by 1 since you left me here.  I feel like I have no real purpose. I just wake up in the morning and wait to go to sleep at night.  I'm kind of lost without you.  I loose track of the years we were together because it just seems surreal that we aren't planning a trip or getting ready to go somewhere this weekend, or that the flower truck isn't showing up with my roses.  I miss you more than anything I have ever missed.  You were my best friend, my confidant, my safe place.  I'll spend the rest of my life looking for a love like ours.  Until we meet again happy 14th anniversary baby.  Continue to watch over me.

I haven't opened this page since I posted our picture and typed those words that I cried the whole way through. This has been one of the hardest things that we've had to deal with in our lives. Losing you was so sudden, heart-breaking, tragic and life-changing. Your mom said you were less than a quarter of a mile from the house. You almost made it back to me babe. You were going where you wanted to be, needed to be and loved to be... On the REZ!! I don't know what we did or said to make you fall in love with us and this place.
Traveling, birthdays and holidays, "OUR HOLIDAY", will never be the same. We were so made for each other that we were born on the very same day, February 5th. To find that out, the first time I met you was wild. So wild that I asked you how you pulled that birthday out of the universe or stars or wherever you thought up that date from. You laughed and insisted it was your birthday, so I asked for your ID. Sure enough, we have the same birthday. That would only happen to us. Like when I saw him in Vegas and we didn't tell each other we were each going to Vegas separately, but saw each other there. Once we saw each other, it was like we went there together. 
I want to say thank you to your family for allowing me to be at your cremation. I don't know how I could've gone on in this life without being able to see you, touch you or kiss you one last time. It meant everything to me.
I miss handing you your tools when you're working on your car, going to the junkyard with you, talking about sports, watching Napoleon Dynamite with you for your first time, I miss seeing you with your thumb in your mouth, I miss scratching your back, and cooking for you. So many of the little things that I miss about you babe. 
You taught us so much without even knowing it. JQ fixed the A/C in his car, Tyson changed the outlet for the dryer in the new house, and I changed the brake light in the car. All these things we learned from watching you babe. We love you forever 

My forever, my everything, my heart, my headache. There is not a minute, a second a day that goes by that I don't think of you. My world literally turned upside down when you left this earth.  Everything in Arizona a constant reminder of you. Hell I met you 2 weeks after I got there. The unforgettable memory of how we met. I'm sure no one will ever top that encounter. But we were inseparable from that time forward. Lord knows I would of followed you anywhere and sometimes I did LOL. Your death fixed bonds I never thought would ever be fixed. I know you played some part of it from above. You have been on my mind non-stop. No matter how many pictures I hang or memories I relive in my head I'm so incredibly broken-hearted that there will be no new memories.  I wish I would of taken more pictures. The current count in my phone is 618. My phone should of ran out of memory before we did. I love you baby. There will never be another for me. Until we meet again, I'll see you in my dreams.
Love always you,
Nana

January 15, 2023

Wow Ken, I can’t believe it’s been a year (365 days) since you left me. It’s still hard for me to say the words “you died or passed away.” 

When you left me, my world crumbled. Everything I once knew ceased to exist. My heart is still so heavy, and this grief is something that I must carry with me for the rest of my life. I will grieve for a lifetime – period, the End. There is no “moving on” or “getting over it.”
 
There is no end to the ways I will grieve and for how long I will grieve. 
Upon my own death let it be known that I died with a broken heart.

Ken, I will NEVER get over losing you son.  There will never come a day, hour, minute or second, I stop loving or thinking about you son. 

Through the Grace of God, I am learning to live in this world without you.

You will live on in my heart, spirit, and mind, forever. 

My heart will always be broken but I am comforted by your love and the inspiration you bring me. 

I now have an Angel in Heaven and that Angel is you son. 

Love Always, Ma


January 15, 2023

Wow Ken, I can’t believe it’s been a year (365 days) since you left me. It’s still hard for me to say the words “you died or passed away.” 

When you left me, my world crumbled. Everything I once knew ceased to exist. 

My heart is still so heavy, and this grief is something that I must carry with me for the rest of my life. I will grieve for a lifetime – period, the End. There is no “moving on” or “getting over it.” There is no end to the ways I will grieve and for how long I will grieve. 

Upon my own death let it be known that I died with a broken heart.

Ken, I will NEVER get over losing you son.  There will never come a day, hour, minute or second, I stop loving or thinking about you son. 
Through the Grace of God, I am learning to live in this world without you.

You will live on in my heart, spirit, and mind, forever. 

My heart will always be broken but I am comforted by your love and the inspiration you bring me. 

I now have an Angel in Heaven and that Angel is you son. 

Love Always, Ma


307 days ago, you were unexpectedly called home. Nothing has been the same since. There are so many things I want to say. I wanted to stand up and say so much at your Celebration of Life, but we both know it would have turned into something else and I didn't want that to happen. The people that matter most, know that I am the love of your life, and your destiny. I have been since the day we met, and no matter what we went through, you never wavered from that. Your Mom has reminded me of that and it has helped me through this darkness. When you left, you took most of my heart and soul with you. When I'm with your Mom or our family, my heart feels a little more whole for that time. I heard "Sunshine" by Alexander O'Neal a few months ago, and it reminded me that you always said that would be what our first dance would be at our wedding, a wedding you had more planned out than me down to what gators you would wear. Your Grandma told me that her and Grandfather Byrd would make sure to dance to that song on their anniversary to honor us. The fact that she wants to honor us, means everything. I miss you so much it hurts, I still feel very broken, but I honestly can hear your voice telling me "Come on Kate, I've prepared you for this", I know I have to stay strong, keep moving forward for us, and continue to be there for our family, which I will do until we reunite again.  I feel you with me & carry you with me always. I love you beyond time or measure now and always. I know without a doubt who and what I was and continue to be to you. I'm thankful to have your Mom, your Grandparents, Nicole, Devell, and Dominque, because, without them, I wouldn't be able to get through this.  They've got me for life, and I've got them for life.  My love, you would be so so so proud of Nique & Wink! I know you are watching over them, and all of us making sure we are good, and guiding us along the way. Thank you for loving me the way you did and do. You will forever be my always! 

Ken and his daughter Dominique. A father and daughter bond can never be broken. 

Ken was my High School Sweetheart and is the father of my daughter Dominique.  He will always carry a special place in my heart. I got the best gift in the world from Ken - My daughter Dominique.  Rest in Peace King Ken. 

The truth is I'm not over Ken, and I never want to get over him, and probably won't ever get over him.
I desperately want to see Ken again, hear his voice -every morning what's hood with ya- see his goofy grin. I used to call him my Milk Dud when he had a fresh haircut.
Everyday I plaster on a fake smile and numb my brain with all the crazy psych meds so I don't feel anything. But still the grief is overwhelming. I can't catch my breath I can't focus. So many say just get over him because most know we had a turbulent relationship. But no matter how rough it got we always came back together. I am thankful for renewed relationships ~these relationships let me know how much you truly loved me, and God knows I loved you too. But we both knew love wasn't enough to make a relationship work.
No matter what we were to each other in the past or when the accident happened we both knew we would ride this thing called life out together, no matter what the relationship titles were. There was nothing I wouldn't have done for you.
So much more makes sense now, and I'm so happy you accomplished some of your goal and dreams, even if they were without me. But hey if that ain't real love, wanting to see some win even if it's not with you.
My heart will forever be broken, but hopefully day by day I will learn how to adjust to this new normal I just don't see it happening soon.
I fought for you in life my love, and I'll continue to fight for you in death.
12 years wasn't enough.
Nana


“Julio here … Fire the grill up … Go get them tomahawks y he playing for” . I miss u bro u wasn’t nothing but a ball of joy every time I saw u … Open arms for anybody who came around… I never forget the memories love u big dawg

Ken was caring, loving, funny, crazy, amazing, & frustrating. His personality was contagious. Neither of us knew how much our lives would change the day we met. From the very beginning, we both knew we were destined to be together &were soul mates. That’s something he would remind me of often leading up to him being taken from us. When I made the decision to leave it was incredibly hard& never with the intention that the split was a forever thing. We both knew we would come back together to live our days out together. Even after the split, there was never a time when we weren’t talking or texting. We never left each others lives. We were drawn to each other like magnets, & the love only got stronger.  We shared so many laughs, & an intense, one-of-a-kind, once in a lifetime, great love. Ken would send me text messages with pictures of my ring telling me that it was time for me to put it back on, that I was the love of his life & no one would ever be able to replace me. We talked about the kids all the time & what we wanted for their futures. He would say that I was the glue that held our family together & he needed me to put our family back together. He called me the day he found out he was going to be an Uncle & was so excited. From the time Cameron was born, he kept telling me I had to come meet him &hold him and I’d fall in love with him just like he did. We often talked about his Grandparents and the bond his Grandma and I had. I will never forgive myself for us not coming back together like Ken wanted. I had a dream this week& I believe with my whole heart that was Ken’s way of letting me know I was where he wanted me to be. I promise to be there for your Mom, Marlon, your Grandparents, Dominique, Winkle, Biff, Brittany, Cameron, Tylan, Devell, Nicole & Andre always. To remind the kids how much you loved them & how proud of them you were. To honor you& our love. To believe in our love & what we were to each other. I promise to always carry you with me. I love y

Sending love, prayers & healing energy to the family. 

Let’s say this was a trip that will always been remembered forever! So many memories happened in just three days,  if anything could go wrong, it did. From the AC breaking to side swiping another car. Yet, the entire time you was unbothered by anything and continue to provide us with laughter to ease our minds. That was the kind of man you were, always living life and enjoying the moment like nothing was too serious. The game you poured into us three is the reason why we are the men we are today. You was not only a brother to Vell but you was a brother to me and my two brothers as well. You spent time with each of us and popped up or called to show love at the most unexpected times like you knew we needed it. Especially with Bam, he loved you bro. You always had our back and we would do anything for you. You left an impact on so many people lives and touched so many souls in the world that you’ll never be forgotten. I know how protective you are over your little brother. Rest up King, I got Devell

I've started and stopped doing this, I don't know how many times already. This is still a bad dream to me. I can't and don't want to imagine our lives without this man that had such a huge and important role in mine and my children's lives. He was there through some of our worst times, as well as some of the best. 
The boys are missing the "sports talks" that lasted for hours and ended with you guys playing some Madden. I don't know if they've even played it since you been gone. 
We became grandparents to Ziyon, who also plays with ears. They even put each other to sleep a couple of times. So sad he won't be here to welcome our second grandson Sage, who will be here soon. We were hoping he would be born on our birthday. We thought that would be such a cool birthday present for both of us. 
For the past, almost 18 years, this man has been the only father figure my kids knew. We're still in disbelief. He not only helped me raise my children, he helped raise a family, for which Thanks aren't enough.
Winkle, Dominique, Jean, Marlon, Biff, his grandparents and the rest of Ken's family. Thank you for sharing this handsome, wonderful, special, intelligent, funny, smart ass of a man with us. He has truly touched our souls in so many ways. He's given us some great advice and negotiated some good deals for us. All he's been and done is appreciated, beyond words. 
I don't know how or if this pain will ever fade,  but my love for you will never go away. I guess you were right, when you said, I can't get rid of you, that you're not going anywhere, because EVERYWHERE I go, EVERYTHING I do, EVERY thought I have, is about you. All the laughs, tears, conversations, and memories flood my mind constantly, I miss you more and more everyday babe. Like Sade said, this is "No Ordinary Love", and we both knew it. Until we're "smoking and joking" together again babe. I love you forever.... Your " common- law wife", Roxanne

Jeremiah 29:11
King James Version

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.



Ken with Son Winkle, Cousin Fredo, Brother Biff, and Best Friend Barry

My 1st apartment in AZ. You loved this chair. That little one bedroom. You pulling a uhaul up to it and literally helping me furnish the whole thing.  Remember when we through a Memorial Day party there,  omg like 50 people in that tiny place. The AC couldn't keep up. You had to work that night but you still manned that little grill and fed a crowd, and told everyone about the penny. I'm pretty sure you are the last person who actually cooked in my house here. I live off takeout now. Cooking don't seem fun no more. We always cooked together. You were such a major part of my life while you were here, it's funny that even in death I still catch myself wanting to call you to get your advice, or tell you how someone made me mad. I'm lost without you 💔 

Kenny, For whatever reason I never saw you as an adult, always that mischievous little boy that everyone loved to be around. NEVER A DULL MOMENT!  We Love you...I guess we'll see you next life time❤😇

Until We Meet Again, I Love You Cousin💔

I met Ken in 2008 when Devell and I became friends at ASU. Ken treated me like family from day 1. He always spoke and asked me how I was doing, making sure I was good. I just knew Ken was good people because he always looked out for Devell and Mama Jean! Ken knew how to have fun and always made sure everyone was having a good time! Last time I seen Ken we were celebrating Cameron’s dedication and he made sure I knew he approved of me being Cam’s God Mama. Ken, you know I’m going to see Devell through this and we will make sure Cameron knows who you are ! Much love Big Bro!  

Hanging out…was probably getting ready to make us some drinks. That’s one thing we did, enjoy a cocktail.

Blood couldn’t make us anymore Family! 

Adventures of a lifetime. You definitely opened my eyes to New things. 

I went to the desert on a horse with no name

Thinking about the time, Kenny senior, came through the door with baby Kenny Jr., the whole house was crowded around him including Jake. He as a baby had that same smirk that he had as an adult, 
Not to shortly after,  I had Shavell,  Kenny would fall out in  the floor if  you touched her.
And dont let me  get started on  them extra hard white shoes he kicked you with.

Mercy, Peace and strength!

OBITUARY

Kenneth Randolph Jr.

February 5, 1980 – January 15, 2022

Mariposa Gardens Memorial Park & Funeral Care

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