Cruz De los Angeles Gutierrez

I’ve learned over the past week, month, years just how strong he was. I’ve learned from him, his brothers, sisters, and his friends and acquaintances. He made friends and was true to each and every one of them as well as his siblings. He supported them, guided them and made them happy. He made me happy.

I stand here today with a broken heart. The loss of a child is something I could have never prepared for. Even during the past week, under these odds, I refused to prepare myself. I was not ready. Im still not ready. He had so many dreams and so many plans for the future. He would have made these dreams come true. Without a doubt in my heart. He was trying to work through his issues he was going through.

My beloved Cruzito, you suffered in this short life and although you were

prepared to fight your problems, you never had a chance to lace up the gloves and give it your all. He did not die on his terms. He loved us. He will continue to love us. My son, Cruzito, died a man. He died with the dignity. He achieved his goal of making us proud even though he might have not thought he did, he did. Our lives will never be the same. He made sure of that, how you ask? For always making us laugh even though he was hurting he taught us we can overcome our fears, whether that’s fear of socializing being ourselves or just on daily life issues. And for that we are blessed.

You leave behind Tina, Agustin, Juan, Daniella, and Ysenia your dad and I, however we have been more than blessed to have you in our lives for 19 wonderful years. Thank you for being a part of our lives and being who you were!

Cruz, your loved with all our hearts; we are so proud of you; you have taught us its ok to be us and not be scared. I look forward to seeing you again when the time comes. I will continue to be the best mom I can be to your brothers and sisters. I will continue to seek peace. I will not let you down. It’s my turn to make you proud.

Rest In Peace my son and never stop being you!