You are still my BFF, Kathy. I want to thank you so much for bringing me closer to Dell. We lean on each other every day and I really try to honor your memory in a very special way. I'm taking care of your fur babies for you. I love them both so much. You did such a great job raising them. I feel so very honored to be able to spend time where you should be. You're not far from my heart dearest Kathy. In fact, I feel sometimes that we're not too far apart. I look at your picture and see your beautiful face and I can almost hear your voice sometimes. Missing you has been bearable because you lead me to Dell. I remember all the love & respect you had for him & I try hard to follow your memories. You're in my heart always my BFF. I look forward to seeing you in heaven someday. You will have your gorgeous smile and yellow hair and I will rush to hug you. Until that day, just know that I will always try to hear your voice and remember every word you said to me. I hope to never let you down my Kathy. I will carry you with me every where I go. Your loving BFF, Mary

Hi baby, Its been so long since I've talked to you on this page,but not long since I've thought about you because that happens every day. I can't believe it's been 2 years since you have been gone. I really miss and ly you so very much, it's still hurts like crazy. But as I have always known since that fateful day , that you are in God's hands and there is nothing I can do to bring you back . You know we always talked about what we would do if the other would go first . I would always tell you I hope it was me , because I could not bare the thought of you not being by my side. I come to the realization that all that was selfishness on my part. I now know that the feeling of not having you in my life is at times unbearable. I would not ever wish that feeling upon your heart of me not being a part of your life and you having to bare the loneliness. As you know from looking down on me and seeing what I am up to and how much my life has dramatically changed, you know that I am making it and very , very happy . You know that Mary is a huge part of my life . She is the best thing that has happened to me in a long time. She is so much like you sweetie it's amazing. She is sitting next to me now and I will let her say a few words. I will let you go baby and just remember that I will always love and miss you . ❤️❤️💋💋🌹🌹.
Hi my dear & beautiful Kathy. I feel like I was just with you, 2 short years ago. And, yet so much has changed since you & I last saw each other. You are & will always be the very best friend that anyone can ever have. Your kindness and love is so beautiful and I will never in my life forget our wonderful talks. I many ways, you taught me how to be a good friend. I learned how to be more patient and loving from talking & loving you. I really miss you so much and as you know, I try to talk to you almost every day. You are not living in pain my sweet , beautiful Kathy and that's what gets me through being here without you. Life will never be the same for me

Hi my love. It's been way to long since I have talked to you. I really do miss you baby,and wish I could turn back time and have been able to prevent your sudden departure. I think of you every day sweetie. I didn't forget about your birthday , I was just trying to think of what I wanted to say to you and I still don't have a clue as to what. All I know is your truly missed . The babies are doing really good. I thought maybe baby girl was going to be a mama ,but I think we're in the clear. I'm sure you have been keeping up with my activities lately and I know you have my best interest at heart. I am truly happy baby. I didn't ever think that I could find happiness again and knew I was going to spend the rest of my days pining for your return,or our time together in heaven where I know you are at peace. I thought I could not wait to meet you there but I know now it's not my time and I'm meant to see you soon enough with rushing it. Work is as usual and I no longer talk to those on line girls and I know you didn't like them using me . I have found love again in a different way, but  I am truly happy. 
   I need to go now baby and I love and miss you always. 
  ❤️❤️💋💋🌹🌹 DAD

Happy Heavenly Birthday mom. You are missed and loved so much. 
Love you! 💐🌹💕❤️

I love you and miss you so very very much Mom. I wish I could hear your voice and hug you again. I love you 💕

Good morning my love. Baby it's been way too long since I've talked to you, and I'm sorry. I know you would want me to eventually get to where I'm  feeling so good lately sweetie that I haven't felt bad about talking to you, if that makes and since at all. After you went away I was so lost . I was hurting really deep inside I wasn't sure if I wanted to remain behind with out you . I knew then and I know now that that would not be the mindset I needed to be in . They say time heals all wounds, but I'll tell you my wounds are hurting just as bad now that they were when I come to the realization that you were never coming back to me. I knew then it would be a total different world without you baby. I talk to you every morning,noon and night. I miss you so much sweetie. But I do know that I've been slowly getting my pep back a little. Baby I will do my best with out you in my presence, but it is really hard at times. If you're able to actually listen and hear me, you'll know what I'm feeling and what my thoughts are . I love you baby for all times . 
  Love,DAD

Hey baby, I haven't written in awhile. I don't have to explain why that is , but I think your watching over me, so you know why. Baby I've been staying busy with work and stuff. I took mom fishing Saturday, and n she really had fun. She made me a nervous wreck, but it was a good day.I took her to eat for lunch and then we went to see the old houses in Galveston. I'm going to be able to watch ALOT of football games, Mikey is fixing that this coming weekend. Sweetie, I don't know if not writing you all the time is a good thing or a bad thing. I think that overtime, I will write you less, but I'll never stop loving you. I am actually pretty happy at times and it feels really good. Baby your not here and I can only guess that up there is so better and peaceful. I'm still taking it a day at a time . Im heading to bed now sweetie. I love and miss you so much ❤️❤️💋
Love DAD

I didn't write you and tell you happy anniversary yesterday sweetie, and I'm sorry. So late happy anniversary. 
Love , DAD 💋💋❤️❤️

Hi sweetie. Just woiup , it's 4 in the morning and can't go back to sleep. Well baby it's our last day of me honoring your week. Today would be the actual date 9-9-22 that you took you last breath and went away from for ever. Baby I didn't like seeing you lying there being pumped full of medicine to ease your pain,but I put my faith in the professionals that night. Also my faith in God that you will be taken care of because my job of doing that came to a end . It was the worst week of my life knowing I will never hear your  voice , see your face , hear your laugh , listen to you yell at me and most of all baby, making love to you. I know in my heart that you are in a better place and the pain you endured is only peace now. It's been a real lonely journey without you ❤️❤️💋. I've had so much love and support from all around me , family , friends and people that have never met you. I will keep going as you would expect of me and I of you if the circumstances were reversed. Kathy Lynn Withrow I promise to never allow my mind to be vacated of you or our memories. I love you sweetie and miss you so terribly
Love DAD 💋💋❤️❤️💋💋❤️❤️🙏🙏🕊️🕊️💔💔😂😂

Hey my love . Well bits coming up on the end of the week you were in the hospital a year ago.There has been so many ups and downs since you've been gone . You know baby , that I can't hardly bring myself to go into your room , even a year later. I might have gone in there 6 times . It's still so eeri to walk by , little lone go in . The power has been going out and I thy I have solved the issue on why. It was a week breaker . Tha electrician said it was good , so I believed him . I put a brand new one in tonight. I think that will fix it baby. Its always something happening since you've been gone. I take it as your watching over me . I love you 😘💞 baby and miss you so so so so so much. !!! 
  Love DAD

Good evening sweetie. Here it is another day in your week on of talking to you. Work is going ok , it's close to the house. Cooking ribeyes for dinner tonight. Sweet potato fries, salad and rolls. I do my you baby. I know that I repeat myself alot , but it is true and I'm not sure what to say. It's been pretty routine, these last days. I'm going to let you go baby. Dinner is going and if I stop the text I'll lose it .
Love this much 🌚
DAD

Hello baby, this is still your week of remembrance. I've been trying to write you every day this week up until Saturday. I've also been texting more people as you well know, so I apologize if I've already written you today. Even if I did already today, you are most definitely worth it . I wish you were here so bad sweetie, but I can wish till eternity and you will never come back to the way I would hope for anyway. I will never let you go in my heart ,but I think I'm falling for some one special. Still not 100% sure , but I do feel all again as I was with you. I know that we always talked about moving on if ever given the chance, but it's not easy. I feel that I am abandoning you . I know that it's not that way, but I can't help feeling that way about it . When your picture fell,for no reason, it freaked me out badly. Then my truck messed up ,and the breaker also . Call it coincidental, but I believe you were trying to reach out to me and tell me something. 
I know you would want me to be happy. I really have been happy the last few months. My heart feels good . I love you always and forever and never will I forget you. But I think I'm ready to let go in some ways, and I know you understand. Hell,it might have been you that put me on this path . I'll tell you about it another time, because this is your time. Love you lots sweetie ❤️❤️💋💋😘😘💞
DAD

Hey baby, I'm here again on another day for you week of remembrance. I will honor you all week. It's just my way of saying that I still love you like you were sitting next to me . I hung your silver 🕊️ from Life Gift on my visor in the truck. I give you a kiss a few times a day and tell you that I love you so much and I miss you even more. I think I might try to go to a movie, like we used to do . I'll maybe go to our seafood restaurant we liked so well this week also . Just do my best to make it your week baby. 😂😂💋💋❤️❤️. We really had a good time at mikeys yesterday. I left there around 5 this morning . I also talked to Devin yesterday. He is working and finishes training this week and will get full time. He will make 11 $ per hour. He wants to contact his mom, so I'll get kristan to email the info to him. I love you 💓😘 sweetie and I'll talk to you in the morning or tomorrow sometime. 
Love DAD

Hey sweetie how you doing. Just writing you because this is your week of my remembrance of you and our life together. I remember so much of the things we have done , where we have gone people we have met through our our time together. We were supposed to enjoy each other longer than was given us , but it's something I can't fix baby. I would say I would trade spots with you in a moments notice, but I would not wish the grief on you that I have and still going thru. It at times is very lonely and depressingly difficult. I think if I was the one that went first, that you would not do so well. I would have to be your guardian angel and watch over you just to help you along this rough road. I'm at mikeys today for dinner. He and Jenny invited me out . You never got to meet her , but she's pretty Kool and you would of have liked her very much.I ly and miss you so much every day. I need to go baby. 
Love DAD

Hi my love. Well sweetie it's been a long damn year with out you. Today is a complete 365 days since you had your heart attack and ultimately and most sadly ended your life and in turn ended our life together. I wondered where I would be in one year after you passed away. It's been a long journey and several first for me . Your birthday, Christmas, Thanksgiving, Easter, mother s day , father's day , my birthday, well you get the point. I miss you so very much. That hasn't changed, only seems to get a little easier. I'll never forget you as long as my day is on this earth last . You will always be my best friend
 I love and miss you sweetie
Love DAD

Good morning baby. It's been a while since I've talked to you, and  sorry about that. Been busy with work and other stuff. I can't and won't ever forget you . It's this coming up weekend a year ago that I lost you in body but never in my memory. I can't believe that it's been a year already. It seems like yesterday that I was talking to you . It's still a unbelievable feeling how much I miss you . Sometimes things happen around the house that tells me your watching over me . Our wedding picture fell off the mantle and scared the crap out of me . It's been up there for months. It coihave fell at any time, but it chose to fall while I was standing next to it. I just know it was you . I miss you so so so so much baby . It makes me start crying after all this time every time I write you. I guess that will never stop . Sweetie,I need to go now. I love and miss you with all my heart and soul. 
Love you 💕💕💕
DAD

Good morning baby girl. I sure am missing you alot. I know it's coming up on a year since you went to heaven. I still can't believe I have to say that. I've been through alot of first in the past year . All the special days that I've had to go thru with out you was incredibly hard and difficult to bear. I still cry every time I write you. It s like it was yesterday that you were here. As you know I've been somewhat talking to some women. It makes me feel alive again and I know you understand that I am a needy man . No one will ever or never replace you or the love I still have for you. I know we would want both of us to be happy. I would rather have you back ,but that will never be physically possible. I know you have been there, because I can feel you telling me things and I do listen sweetie. I've texted misty a few times , and it didn't go well . I've given her commissary and phone minutes. It's never about anyone but her . I don't think she will ever change her way s . She was to go to sentencing on Monday, but she hasn't said anything. It probably didn't go well for her. That's why she hasn't responded. I know you always did the best you can to help her out and she was never really appreciative. Well sweetie I need to get to work now . You know the drill!!! 
Love DAD 💔💔

Good morning my little lady. How are you . I took mom and Mary to eat for lunch yesterday. We went to the Italian restaurant over by Mary's house yesterday . In memorial city , u know where. I've been planning to go for awhile. Saturday I couldn't stop crying almost all day , it was an emotional day for me . Just wishing you would be going too. We got some pics and I'll try to send you one . If you look really close ,you'll see that you were there and you were sitting next to my heart ❤️❤️🌹🌹. Sounds kinda of corny but I don't care . Well also I've been talking about my moving on with a friend the last few times we talked. She wants to get serious, and I'm not sure of I'm ready for that . Not sure how to let you go enoto get that serious. You will always be the love of my life and my feelings will never change . But I'm sure some relationship s would want me to move on . If I come to love another woman in my life , I know you would want me to give her the same of me that I did of you. It really scares me baby. Also I'm talking to another as well. She lives up state . I talked to her more than the first one .  I know you will wish me luck in these adventures of my somewhat new life. I need your guidance. So you please keep looking down on me and don't let me get caught up in something I shouldn't. I actually had my first Internet fight yesterday while in HEB 
 It wasn't pretty, but necessary. I think it was you telling me it needed to be said . I listen to my intuition and let it guide me . I really think it is you helping me . I'll keep you updated sweetie. Love 💕💜 and miss you so so so much . 
Love always and forever 💜💜💋💋
DAD 

Good morning baby, just had a few minutes and wanted to say I miss you so much . Sitting eating breakfast. I'm working closer to house. It's not as far as Columbus and Sealy. I know your looking down on me and I think your giving me signs that I need your blessings on . Not sure if they are a go ahead or pull back and be careful. I feel alive again . It's been a long time. When you left it put me in a spiral on the downward turn . I know you would rather be here and I definitely would,but this is something that we can't control. I know you want me e to be happy and fill my days with joy . It still hurts like hell not having you here , I can and will never have another women that give her all to make us happy in our long wonderful marriage. It's hard to hold back the tears , but I'm trying to . Sweetie please keep watching out for me and you please be happy for me in my peice of mind quest . What ever happens and what ever I do ,I can and never will have a reply for you and what you mean to me still . My heart still aches every day,but I'm doing best I can . Some people close to us have noticed that I seem happy and cheerful lately,which I tend to agree with them . I just hope it's maybe on a permanent basis , we will go slow and hope I don't make a mistake. I do have my family helping me and watching out for me . I talked to gayla ,Helena ,squeek a out things and it's helping with my decisions . Sweetie I need to go now . Just remember I love 💕 you and nothing will ever chat that. Love and miss you !! 
DAD 

I finally found you, I couldn't find you fo along time. . I resy missed you so my. I thouy I wasn't goiygo be able to talk anyy. I was going to funeral home to ask why I couldn't bring you up on your page . They told me I would be able to onsend be messages at any time with no limits . Anytime so glyi get to talk to you this morning. . I'm should be finished with sealy today , except things that don't have answers yet . I need this break from driving. Then it was mentioned that a job in Galveston might be in the works ..well sweetie I need to go now , I was just worried that I lost you again . I'm glad i didn't. You make things worth moving . I'll talk to to later a be out a certain someone that might have stollen my GF heart 💜. It's her  b-day Friday,and think about a partydo her . Love and miss you so so so much it hurts so baby . 💕 I love you .
DAD

Good morning my love, hope your resting well . I have a few minutes to chit chat. I've been working around the house the last two days,and I'm home in 20 to 30 minutes,what a difference compared to a 2 hour drive. Hopefully I can get Sealy wrapped up soon and get back to my side of the world. I know I've told you about my friend I met . It's really hard to look at and feel about anyone like I feel about you !!!!  I talk to you when I can and I always will . Till my last  breath on this earth ,I will  always love you no matter what . I'm lonely and would like companionship from the opposite sex . I've been texting her for around 4 week s . I need your guidance on what my feelings are towards this friend. I know you understand, what my feelings are . I'm not the most confident man and I think that I will never have another women give me what you have 
. I will never try to substitute you with anyone . I sometimes look at my phone several times to see if she has texted. ( What does that even mean?). I miss you so much and want so bad for you to walk in the front door and say that your home and this was a joke . If that happened I would hug and kiss you for a week and not let go . Than I would spank your but for pulling a joke like that. If it would only work out like that . I need to go sweetie. I love 💕💜💜 and miss you so so so very much. Please give me guidance. I need you to help me with all you can and any way you see fit . Love and hugs forever.
DAD 

Good morning my sweet. I had a few minutes this morning while I'm getting gas and breakfast. Wanted to tell you I 💕💕 and miss you so so much. I talked to you last time about someone I've been talking to . She is definitely not you !! We spent most of our lives together and that can never be replaced,no matter what happens. Talking to her makes me feel somewhat alive . She strokes my ego and it makes me feel like I still have a purpose. Because,since you've been gone my heart has been broken into many pieces and it's really hard to put it back together. I know I don't love and that's not why I talk to her . I can never replace you sweetie and will never do so. But I know you want me to be happy in life and it's really hard to do when every time Ithink about you (24/7) it brings me to tears . I may ask your advice or opinion on things from time to time and any sign you want to send me ,,I'll try to recognize and make the best decision. Got to go now sweetie, I love 💕💜💜 and miss you so very much. It's getting close to a year and it's really going to be difficult. Love DAD 

Good morning my love. Had a few minutes before I can get breakfast and wanted to talk to you. I talked to mark Ryan this week for at least an hour . It really was nice to hear from. He is going to help me rework our electric panel outside. It really needs it . I e had breaker trouble and it really scares me it's going to cause major problems. I know it will be done correctly and it won't cost a fortune. Also we talked about you helping me find a fill in for you while you were still here . Only if you could pick her out ,so then it will be some one that woytrest me like you would. Just so you know I've met a lady friend and been talking to her for a few weeks now. I will not ever love any one else like I loved you . I know you would want me to be happy and be able to confide in some one . I'm really lonely with out you. I need to cut short. I love you so so so very much and miss you everyday. 
Love DAD ❤️❤️🌹🌹

Good morning my beautiful ❤️❤️❤️ . I have a few minutes while eating breakfast at stripes . As you already know that we were out of power for 4 days . A pretty severe storm came barreling thru the neighborhood on Wednesday night . Sweetie it was so bad that I thought the wind was going to lift house off the foundation. I pulled on front door to go out and I couldn't even pull it open 
 Naturally it scared me and pups ,so we hid in bathroom . There are house that got split in half wit large pine trees . You know we had a generator,but that's it . It was miserably hot . The pups and I went catin the truck to keep them cool. Baby girl had it tough . She couldn't stop panting. I know she was overheated bad . After she calmed down ,it was right too to sleep for her . Mj on the other hand stood gaurd duty . He thoy papa need security. Power came on at 9 pm Saturday night. It hurricane season gets bad I'm ready . Might think about another's generator . A big one ( 15K ) at least . I need to go sweetie . I live you so so so much 💖💖💖 and wish I could be with you , Even for a few minutes ,just to hug you and tell you I miss you more than you know
 TTYL , love 
DAD 

Hey sweetie, just sitting here thinking about you 💕💕💕 and missing you so much. There are days that are good ,but also ones line today that I trull wish you were still here . I spent the better part of my life loving you ,missing you , arguing with you , hugging you, kissing you , talking to you and so much more . Believe me I miss all those times and would give anything to have them back . I'm just really missing you alot lately,and not sure how to handle things sometimes. I could always depend on you to be there to talk to and now I can't. I can text ,pray,think and wish I was ,but it's not the same. I love 💕💜💜 and miss you so so so much you don't even know . Please look down and pray for my comfort while I take the time to adjust to your absence. 
Love always and forever,till I see you again 
DAD 


Good morning baby girl, I wanted to text you real quick . Yesterday I went to store for groceries and just happen to bump into an older gentleman and I noticed his air force veteran hat he was wearing. , So I wanted to tell him thanks for his service and we began to talk. Come to find out he started talking about his late wife of 7 years gone , . They were married 53 years. Long story short , I know I'm not alone with this sort of grief and loss . He reassured me that I'll see you soon enough and to keep fighting. He still misses  her everyday,even after 7 years . It was like it was meant to be that we met . I will take it as a sign from you sweetie. Yesterday was my first father's day that I couldn't spend with the wife of my kids . Started crying really early when I woke up , but after I talked to this man at store it surely helped . I need to go sweetie, I 💕💕💕💕💕💕 love and miss you so so so much .
Love DAD

Hello my one and only, how are you doing up there ? Just stopped to get gas and breakfast. I finally finished Columbus job . Yahoo!! I wish you could be here to help me celebrate. It's been a long 2 years going out there . When I went back to grant ,this was what was giving to me in order to do that . I told them I would put the last grille in if that's what it took to get back to work . Again I'm glad to have a job ,but I worked hard for you and did the best I could to give you what you needed and wanted. I miss and love ❣️ you so so so very much. I need to get on the road.Love always and forever.
DAD

Hey baby whats you doin?  I just can't get you off my mind . Been thinking about you 💕☺️ all day long for awhile. Every thing I see seems to remind me of you or something we did .it seems like a lifetime that you've been gone and it really hurts every day. There are many days that I laugh and smile ,but then turd to you and why your not here .Even writing you nowakes me cry !!!! But as weird as it seems ,after a good cry I seem to feel a little better .I'm not sure if that's a way to release tension or not ,but it ses to help . After butters passed away,I was playing with the pups one day and realized that we are next on the list .Not sure if I should think like that but it just happens. Will have   to have to watch them slowly get old and die first or will it be my turn .If it's me first ,then what will happen to them without you or me . ??? 
I guess best thing is go day by day and hope for the Lord to watch over us . I know if you were here you could help me with what to do !! Well sweetie I need to go now , and Iove you an miss you so very much ,and the pups too 💕💕🌹🌹🙏🙏💞💞😭😭

Hello my special girl. Sitting here at gas station this morning with extra time ,so I thought I would drop you a line. I've really been thinking about you lately and can't seem to get you off my mind . The 4 the of July is fastly approaching and it will also be a holy you will not be here for , another first . I finally talked to Brad yesterday. I think I've mentioned him before . His wife just passed awayA month or so ago. I wanted to call him all the time and console him and give the offer to talk . Every time I did,I would end up crying and it made him also . So I stopped  calling him unty he go back to work . I'll be there if he needs to talk . I hope you and baby bubbers found each other and you'll are playing together. I think she missed you terribly and it helped her along to the end . Well sweetie I need to go to work. I miss you so so so much and really wish it was a dream still and I would wake up in morning and your making my coffee , but I know I can't have that. 💕 Love you to no end .
DAD  

Good morning my love ❣️❣️❣️. Made it back from CC from memorial weekend and I got alitty burn on my legs ,but not too bad ..  It was a beautiful eeiand w really wish you were there . I can't talk long ,need to get to work . Love 💕💜💜 and miss you so very much . 
dAD 

Good morning baby girl ❤️😚❤️. I bearing bad news this morning and if it's true what they say,you already know and probably knew when it was going to happen before it did. Mama bubbers died last night . Mom took her out yesterday for some sun and fresh air . She was in bad shape and going down quick. She couldn't see , would not eat,drink and other things . I sure hope you and her are walking in the sun and beautiful places that are part of being in heaven. Please keep a spot open for me And the other 2 kids when it's our time . Tell her that papa loves her and I'm sorry that she went thru what she did . I love you guys and will be with you'll in its own time .love 💕💜💜 DAD 

Hey sweetie how are you 💖💖. Wanted to talk this morning,but just didn't have time . You know I've been pretty down in the dumps lately, especially after your celebration. It seemed to set my heart 💜💜 and emotions back a little and caused me to not really give a crap . I would come home a get in bed and watch TV until time for bed . The last few have been a little different and I got up and worked around the house a little. I went to store ,washed clothes, swept and mopped House,cleaned bathroom, mowed and edged front yard and finished up with my room . Before I knew it ,I was cooking dinner and then time for bed . I'm really trying sweetie to keep busy, because I know if you could be here ,you would kick my ass and tell me to get up and get busy. If things were reversed ,I would do the same. I'm really not sure how long this will take to lead a somewhat normal life with you not beside me ,but I'm giving it all I got sweetie. I love 💕💕 and miss you so so much.
DAD

Good morning my love. Had some extra time this morning and I want to tell you a few things. I plan to go to corpus on memorial weekend. Lonnie is holding a crab boil and bonfire on the beach Sunday. It should be nice. I'm working in Tomball today,and it's so close to house . Not sure how to act , but I'll take it . Butters is not doing so good sweetie. I'm afraid it won't e long until she will be up there running And playing. It's sad to see her in this way. If you could pray for her and let her know you'll be waiting on her and it's ok to let go.I talked to misty by accident the other day. She said she didn't mean to call, but I think she knew. Well she is in trouble again and according to the record s ,this might be her last chance . Well sweetie I don't want to bother you with this ,just thought I would mention it . I love and miss you everyday. It's so lonely without you and it just won't go away. I just don't have any inspiration to do alot . I come home and go straight to my room . I keep telling myself that if you were here ,you would be telling me to get up and do something,whether your here or not . It's just so hard to get motivated. I'll do the best I can sweetie. I need to go now . I love and miss you so so very much and wish things could go back to the way it was ,but I know I'm dreaming. Love 💕💕💕 you back. 
DAD 

Hello sweetie, just thought I would say hi for your birthday and mother's day. A few people texted and called to check on me. That was sweet of them. You know even though it's been a little over 9 months,there are ones that still reach out 
 That shows us that they realize what we meant and cared for each other all those years we were together. I know we had our disagreements and other bad times , but they were far away less than the best times of my life was spending it with you . I still remember like it was yesterday when I first saw you and misty walk into the BDOB. Good must of put us on a collision course on purpose and I never realized it . I was really scared of an older woman and wasn't sure how to handle it . But you knew that I was for you and persisted in making sure we kept seeing each other . Thanks 🙏🌹 for putting me into your life . We did really well together, and I wanted to make sure that you knew how much and still love you. Your physical being may not be here ,but your memory of our life will always be with me .❤️❤️❤️🌹🌹💋💋. I love and miss so so so very much. Good night sweetie. Love 
DAD

Happy Birthday mom. I miss you so much. I really miss our long talks on the phone. We went and had some panjos pizza for you. Love you ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Good morning baby girl, just sitting here and like always thinking about you and why I'm not actually talking to you . I sent you a pic of me on my trip to KC Missouri. I sure had a good time and I probably have told you a million times. I so miss you ,it's hard to explain how much . I e been pretty sick the past week,due to the Pollen in the air . You used to get sick from this every year around this time. I had bought you a few more rose bushes and planted them out front. One I think didn't make it ,but the yellow ones are really pretty. I have been putting them on your picture that sits on my night stand. I think you would have loved them. The garden has some tomatoes and yellow squash that are doing pretty good . I haven't been too inthusiastic about much at all. It's not the same if I'm not able to share with you the outcome of the hard work that goes into the garden. Well sweetie I need to go and get ready for the day . I will be going to corpus for memorial day weekend and I plan to come to area  and visit you where we spread your ashes . I want to visit with you where you asked to be . I love 💕💕💕 and miss you so so so much. 
DAD 

Good morning baby, I've been trying to write you a few times and the page site hasn't been cooperating. Today is the first time lately I was able to get to your site 
. I wanted to tell you that I had such a great time at the draft in KC . Hellena was my go to person and she took well care of me . I drank, are lots of gummies and a few other things . We stayed a few blocks from all the event s . So many people were there. The plane was a little intimidating at first,but I got used to it 
I had to rent a car to get to Dallas because they cancelled my flight . I would have loved for you to be there for sure , but I'm afraythat it would have been too much walking. Believe me I would of carried you on my back all day , if I ly you were there. I took you in my heart and that alone was a pretty daunting task . Not so much physical but really a mental thing . I look at other couples and it brings me back to what I wish still was 
 I need to go sweetie and just know that I 💕💕💕💕 you and miss you sooooo much .
Love DAD

Hey sweetie, look who wants to say ,"I love you and miss you grandma". I was talking to baby girl and she told me she wanted to say hi,so I put a pic with it . She is pretty, huh!! They all miss you too baby, definitely not as much as I do ,but they still stop at your door sometimes. It's really hard baby not having you here. Well it's almost time to take my trip with my triple date next week to Missouri. I wish you could go. You know in a certain way that you will be with all of us . I will always have you deep in my heart 💜💜❤️❤️ and forever in my thoughts and memories. Sometimes I just think about places we have been ,places we always wanted to go , the kisses,the arguments , and all the other thing s ,good and bad, that made us ,us!! I would take a pis of MJ ,but he won't come out from underneath the covers,you know him,you taught him that.. I will be going to corpus for memorial day ,and I plan to go visit you at the waters edge at the old Bob Hall pier area,where Kristan,you know,let you go. It's still a little hard for me to say certain things ,but I think you know what I'm talking about. I love 💕💕 you and miss you so very much sweetheart 💋💋. Good night ! 
DAD

Well good morning baby girl. Just thoyi would drop you a quick line while I'm waiting to go into gate on no site. I have to work tomorrow,bummer . Money is good but I got so much to do at the house. Mom has COVID. I hope she doesn't get any worse . Can't wait to go to the draft. Plane ride may scare me ,cause I'm a wimp . I'll probably be sitting in someone's lap after lift off ,lol. I love 💕 you so much sweetheart 💋💋 and miss you. Love more than you know baby. 
DAD 

Hey baby just really had you on my mind the past week. Not sure how long I will feel like I'm lost without you,but I am . Sometimes I can't stop crying and still wishing you would pop into my room and say I just got back off vacation and I missed you ,but I can only hope ,which I know will never come. I'm so lost without you sweetie,you just don't know how much . I kiss your picture twice a day,I put your roses 🌹🌹 around your picture,I do everything I can to get you to let me know your ok . I know I will probably never hear that either,but I can only hope you'll talk to me in some way . I will keep my ear open and hoping and waiting for your response. I will keep on going as long as I can but it's not easy doing it without you. Sometimes I think I hear you hollering at me to do something for you . I 💕💕 and miss you so so much and miss you more than I ever have . I need things to get easier faster than they are ,but I'll do the best I can .
Love ,DAD

Well sweetie it will be our first Easter of not being together,and I would prefer not to have to go thru this without you ,but I know that can't happy. I was asking baby girl about talking to you this morning and it seemed she looked at me like she wanted to "bark" something out . I could only guess what she is thinking. Thoughts like ,I miss you ,I love you and I wish you could pet me all day long . Her and MJ were going at it for a few days ,but he is sleeping all night again ,so it's over again. I took Mary out for dinner last week for my birthday and we went to Goodies Seafood onI-10 by her house . I enjoy taking her out ,cause it relaxes me in a way that makes me think of you and the times we went out on a special accasion or just to go out . Then I didn't want mom to feel left out so we went to eat at the Sea food place by the shop,I can't think of the name right now . She was worried about how much she could spend. You know me when we went out ,price didn't matter,it was for the memories and companionship. She couldn't finish all her snow crab and took the rest home . I think she enjoyed herself. There is no replacement that I could do or have to make taking someone else out instead of you . I was invited to go to Mikey s for a crawfish boil . Snow crab,shrimp ,  crawfish and all the fixings. I don't get visitors here ,but he come by last night for an hour or so just to visit. It was nice but unexpected. Not sure if he wanted to talk about anything specific but it was nice to have him over . Well sweetie I need to get ready and go , I think I'll spend the night and come back early tomorrow and cook an Easter Dinner for mom and I. I Love 💕💕 you and miss you so so so much. Some days are harder than others ,but they are getting easier to deal with . Oh , I forget to tell you I'm going to Missouri to the NFL Draft.I can't believe I'm going to some place like this . I can only wish ,deep in my soul and heart that you could be there with me . Lonnie got tickets .

Good morning my beautiful ❤️❤️! Sitting here waiting for gas pump to go faster and I thought of you ,which is not anything unusual,so I wanted to say hi and I love and miss still so so much. I don't know if I'll ever stop thinking of you . Some thing funny happened to me yesterday. I got an unusual text from some girl telling me she thought I was cute !! WTF. Out of the blue . It definitely was the wrong number. I thought Rubio give this girl my # and that's why I got a text . In a way it made my chest bow up and that freaked me out . I know in the last of your tests you were trying to find me a respectable woman to help me out with things because you felt you couldn't. Though I seemed up to the task ,I never would have gone thru with anything. That's because I love and respect the woman I married years ago . I am a a one women man . It just goes to prove my love to you and what I promised when I married you. Besides I don't have the skills to date anyone. You were my last date . I never thought about being with someone else . Not sure how much time I have left on this earth ,but rest assured I'm will stay faithful out of sure fear of disappointment to you . I would wait for ever if I could only have you back. Sweetie I'm still so lost with out you . I'll talk later . I love 💕💕 you and miss you so so so much,it just makes my whole body hurt
 Love ,DAD 

Well good morning baby. I miss you everyday. I'll never get use to coming home and not hearing your voice. Sometimes I wish you could tell me that your ok wherever your at . The only place I know for sure your at is set deep in my heart 💜💜 and memories,but it's definitely not the same as javiyoy hear so I can kiss your or argue with you or just anything physical. Im getting gas this morning and it's pumping so slow I can count the pennies. You should have seen Mikey this past weekend. I hurt my knee again and limped around. He was right next to me to make sure nothing happened to me . He has turned out to be a wonderful man . Everyone involved in your celebration made the event that you would be proud of . I even heard from Suzie and Lori . They were not able to make it but they called. The whole weekend was very emotional,but it was really beautiful ❤️❤️. I know you would have been proud of your send off . The pups really miss you . I ask baby girl if she wants to write grandma tonight,and it's almost like she understands and gets a smile 😊😊 on her face. You know that smile!! Well my pump is almost finished and I need to go . I miss and love you more than you know. 
DAD 

Baby,I've brought you home just like we agreed upon . We had a small gathering in the pavilion where our reception was . I'm sorry to say this but I would rather be shoving wedding cake in your mouth instead of spreading your ashes into the ocean. I would rather be hugging you and kissing but today I'm spreading your ashes in the ocean. I would do anything to have you here ,but today I'm spreading your ashes in the ocean . Beverly was there and she really looked good. All your cousins were there . I think it was upwards of 40 people. It really was beautiful. Kristan and Joseph enlarged our reception pics to a large photo. It hurt my heart seeing you closer to life size in that picture than any pics previously. Misty did make it and I'm so thankful that she did. .  Sweetie you know she needed to be there for closure for her. I know we have issues,but that was set aside today with much enthusiasm. I'll write you more on this later, I'm tired baby. I love like no tomorrow and wish I could hug you today . I felt a strong feeling your close to me  
DAD 
 

Well sweetie the day has come to bring you home and my time to keep my promise. There is so much love from everyone it's hard to give back as much as I have been giving from these wonderful people. All the personal things people have done ,that comes from the heart, is so humbling that it makes you wonder if you can ever give back what has been done for you and me . Kristan has ,,I feel , a real difficult time losing her mom. I can only hope this helps her like I know it will help me . Sweetie I really miss you and tomorrow is going to be something so special that I hope they really understand how much one could love another. I hope that feeling like I know will show others to love every day. Never go away mad, always hug for no reason,etc. This would be something I would push onto younger couples and make the realize that love is a sacrifice because it comes with a price of losing the very one you never want to be without. Help me thru this tomorrow and guide me to more understanding
DAD

Good morning baby, I just wanted to say hi sweetie and I love and miss you so so so much. Time is getting closer to bringing you home. I find my heart ❤️ is hurting more the closer it gets . I've said in previous text that I will do what I promised and take you home where you requested and wish to be . Everyone has done an excellent job in getting things done and in the ways I've requested. Also some ideas from others were accepted. I've tried to give everyone something to do if they asked. Some have done more than others ,but it shouldn't And it doesn't matter ,as long as we work together to get results I've asked for. If for some reason some felt left out they shouldn't. I've drawn all together and all have done what I've asked and then some. I know I need to get thru this and it will be tuff. I've learned something over the last months and that is the worst part of loving someone,like I love you ,is it's really hard to lose who you love most . I'm really sorry your not here physically but I know I'll meet with you again soon enough. I love 💕💕 you so so much and again miss you even more . 
DAD 

Good morning my love 💕💕💕, I know it's been awhile since I've talked to you and I'm sorry. I may have not texted you,but never a minute ,hour or a day that goes by that you not on my mind . It's getting closer to your day and my responsibility to put you where you have requested. Not sure if I want to do it at sunrise or sunset. I know either one you'll be ok with , because you admired being at the beach on sunrise or sunset. Just not sure yet . There are several people Involved in making this event very special . I think everyone has a part in this,some a little and some a major part . Either way everyone loves and misses you terribly. We're going to have most of your favorite foods, drink s ,flowers . It's really going to be special .. 💕💕💕😘😘 bayou more than u know 
DAD 

Hey darling,it's been awhile since I wrote . No excuses. I live and miss you also thinking of you 22 out 24 hrs
 . There's not a miny,hour or day that foues but and in reminded of you .I've been working alot lately . Last weekend I worked both week end days . Money was good,but I really like me home time . The only thing missing is you to share with . Also ,it's getting closer to taking you home . Not sure what people wl be there but Hellena thinks around 50 people  . Baby ,I hope you will be proud of what's been done. It can be er be too much ,but what we have set up  is going to be very special. I love 💕 so so so much and miss you even more
DAD 

Hi sweetie, how are things? Sitting here ready for work and want to use the time to talk to you. I'm still on the fence about helping out in a few areas . I want to do the right thing , cause this is your time and I will put your celebration on the priority list and nothing or no one or nothing will stop that from happening. I'm not going to make a drama story about this . Everyone should be adults and take care of thier part and not depend on me to work out their issues. It's going to be hard enough to finish you up and get you to your last stop. It's like I'm saying goodbye for the last time and I'm worried that it's going to cause me to go back a little or regress instead of progress. I knew it was coming to the time to do this and I can't hold on to your ashes for ever. We will get thru this and I will move on . I tell you I love you every night while looking at your beautiful box and your picture. Please look out after me and pray for my piece of mind while I'm trying to get thru this time . I love 💕💕 you so so very much and miss you beyond anything that I've ever loved before . 
DAD

Hey sweetie!! How is you my love 💕💕.? Fixing to go to bed and wanted to talk a few minutes.  It's getting closer to going home baby and I don't know if I'm ready to do what you have I trusted to me!! I will take care of it  as planned. You can be reassured sweetie. I'll always have the memories of the good,bad, indifferent or otherwise and I'll have those as long as my days left before I can hold you again. I have some issues with someone and not sure how to handle it! I know you would try to put aside issues and do what's right,but everyone got tired of deaywith the drama and irresponsible attitudes. Well sweetie it's time to go now and I'll let you know. I'll keep waiting for your wisdom and prayers. Love 💕💕 and miss you so so much. 
DAD 

Hey sweetie,I almost couldn't find you . It wasn't a normal search,but I found you. Fixing to go to bed ,and 2 am comes early . Just wanted to say whats up and I've been missing you alot . It's about time to take you home and take you to where you wanted to be your last . It will be really hard to do it ,but a promise is a promise. I know you would do your best to honor my last wishes and so I'll be there for yours . Can't stay long,so I love 💕💕 t so much and really miss you . Good night sweetie
DAD

Hey sweetie, sorry I haven't gotten back to you in a while . Just hard to find words on how I've been feeling lately. Some days are really good and productive and some not so much. It's been about 5 months since you've been gone ,but seems like forever. Things are just so different and really strange. It's like I'm still in a dream,but I know that is not the reality of it . I'm not sure if I told you about having your celebration at the pavilion where our wedding reception was at . Knowing your looking down and knowing what I'm planning,even before I know what I'm doing ,I'm sure your up to date of what's happening . I know I need to get your journey completed so you can rest,if that's the way it works. Having you next to me when I go to sleep, when I wake up and all thru out the time I'm seeing your picture, beautiful ❤️❤️ I might add just is real comforting. Taking your ashes and spreading them out on the beach like you have requested will be the final destination you've requested to have happen. With the help of everyone involved,this will be something special and my honor to make happen. Having it at the pavilion where our reception was almost 40 years ago seems to make a complete circle. I would have never imagined that I would be doing this in the same place where we started out. I miss you so much sweetheart 💋💋 and I hope you are looking down and pushing me in the correct direction. Mary and I went to dinner Saturday to pappadauex seafood. I really enjoyed it and so did Mary. I know your ok with me taking her out . It's not as good as it would be if it was you,but I know if I was to go with anyone, Mary would be the one you would be ok with. Your mom is having surgery today on her hand , not really sure why . If they told her she needed a finger added for good measure,she would do it . She'll spend all sorts of $ on things she doesn't need ,but will not get her life insurance policy in order. I don't have the $ to put her where she wants to go and I . Out o

Good morning my love 💕💕 , I haven't talked to you in a wy . No excuses ,just got lots of things in the fire . Working on getting "celebration coordinated . Hellena is a huge help, Lonnie is going to take care of the cateei and of course it will be chick - filet . I sent Kristan a package of photos so she can put together a slid show . I will try to set up something memorable and take lots of videyand pictures . Sunset and sunrise if possible if weather allows . Well sweetie i need to go and I'll see you later . I love u so much it hurts ,love dad always 
 💕💕💜💜🥰🥰DAD 


Hi there sweetie. Sitting here ready for bed and talking to baby girl. I was telling that grandma missed her and sorry she wasn't able to be here . I told her I would write a little letter to let you know she and bubba miss you and wish they could bark at you a little. I got ready to go to heb today and walked out with a flat tire. Damn !¡!!!!!. Well I aired it up and took it to the repair shop and got a patch on it until I can get to discount tire . I got the lease agreement in mail this weekend and I need to send it back tomorrow so the pavilion will be reserved. Sweetie, having your celebration there is like I'm going back in time almost 40 years ago . On the wonderful day I looked into your eyes and promised I would take care of you until death us do part. It is really strange that I'm looking back on a promise that I made ,but never expected it to happen so soon. We had a good life and lots of troubles,but we made it and it was well worth All the years . It's going to be really herd saying goodbye on your final place . You always wanted to go home to be on the beach and around the water . Having it at the pavilion just makes it full circle and I will always be so proud that I met you and had spent all these years beside you . I love and miss you so much it hurts still . I still promise that I will continue to move forward and meet every day with a full heart 💜💜❤️❤️ and with thoughts of you in my mind and memories. 
Love you lots💋💋❤️❤️💜💜
DAD

Good morning baby, I'm sitting at work and I have time to talk a few minutes. As you know I'm trying to set up your celebration for spring break 💔💔💔. I've decided to have it at the pavilion where we had our wedding reception. This provides protection from the weather in case it turns ugly,at least there will be protection from the elements. I'm going to put together a slide show ,chic fillet (your favorite) , a sign in or tablet for people to sign if they choose to ,and all your favorite foods,drink and sweet s . I'm thinking baclava . I was asking everyone I know to send any pics that they might have and send them to Kristan. I was looking thru your phone and found a few pics and videos. I wasn't prepared to hera your voice and it hit me pretty hard . I just miss you like crazy sweetie. I'm going to get Brianna to be the photographer for this event . I think she will enjoy being a big part by taking and recording this special time and with pictures. Besides hiring a photographer would cost a pretty penny and I know you would not want to throw that kind of$ at this . Plus having her do it makes it more personal and she would also be honored to do it . I hope that you will be proud of your hubby on what I'm trying to put together. Hellena, Lonnie,and Kristan are going to be a big help in this thing . I need to talk later sweetie 🥰🥰, 💕❤️ I love you so so so much and miss you too. 
DAD

Hey my sugar dumplin pie 🥧, what s up ? Been a pretty good day sweetie, it sure why I feel good ,but I'll take it. Steve had his operation and all went well. I would hope you had some input on his successful dating hospital 🏥. Lonnie and Steve took me out for dinner Tuesday night to a pretty good steak house. It was call Ruth Chris 's . It was in the galareia . Pretty to do place . It was nice , wish you could have been there . You were in my heart 💜,so that's good enough and I'll take that . I have to work tomorrow,I need the ot . Been off a few many days and I need to make that $ back . I love 💕💕 and miss you sweetie so much. I need to go now and I'll talk to you later. Love DAD 💕😘💋💋

Good morning baby, sorry I haven't been talking lately. I'm just been feeling down and out for awhile. Been talking to Tommy's wife a few days trying to help her as well same with a shoulder . I wish we 4 could have been closer as friends. But can't change past ,right !! I'm thinking of taking ellana and Brianna to the movies one weekend and I might invite holly to go with us if she wants to . I hope it's not awkward, I just think it would do her some good to get away from house for awhile. Maybe go to the mall and look around for Brianna a camera set up ,for her interest in photography. Tommy and holly were just like us in alot of ways . They stayed home most of the time and if they went anywhere she said they went to eat or something else together,just like we did . I believe they are having Charles veiwing today. Prayers for the family. Baby it's been a strange past 6-8 months with family and friends passing away . I know we getting older and the out come is inevitable. Your never ready for a kiss of a loved one , but it's going to happen. I miss you sweetie 🥰🥰 and love you so so so much and miss you as well. 
DAD 

Good morning baby!! Fixing to go to work for A1/2 day. Was drinking my coffee and couldn't stop thinking about you. There will be a lot of first this year and the next one will be valentines day . Just like any time or any day I miss you like crazy and still very hard to adjust to you not being here . Some days are easier than others ,but most are really difficult to endure. I still have problems with God taking you from us ,but I know that your not hurting as you were here . But my faith of your watching over me and Kristan and misty stands strong as if you were here . Baby I love 💕💕 you and miss you so so much it's hard to bare sometimes. Please keep us under your watch and your prayers. Love you lots !! 
DAD 💜💜❤️❤️🥰

Hi sweetie! Laying here thinking about why I haven't talked to you lately . Don't know ,just been feeling way down in the dumps lately, I know why I just can't put it out there . Some people wouldn't understand. Haven't worked this week , been sick . Feeling better and ready to get back to it . Charles past away , ferols son in law . The found him on the couch I think . My thoughts are with Pauline. Show him around up there if you would?. I'm pretty sleepy sweetie 🥰🥰, just ready for bed. I love 💕 you so much and miss you too. 
DAD

Hey sweetie, sorry I haven't talked in awhile,just trying to get thru the days . I've been trying to keep my spirits up as much as I can. It's been hard to do , I just miss you so much. I'm glad the holidays are over and I can concentrate on work so my mind sits idle . I don't feel that it's going to get easier or I don't want it to,just not sure. All I know is I miss you terribly. I'm going to get Mikey and Jenny some stuff for their kitchen. It will be from both of us,of course . Pot set ,some corning ware and some storage containers,that will be a good house warming gift. Bri wants to be a photographer,I'll try to get her started out on something small. I know my mom got me started in photography when I was a teenager, if was really Kool learning about how that world works. Well sweetie it's time to go for  now, I love 💕💕 you so very much and thanks again for being my life a d my love 💕💕 for all those years .
DAD

Happy New Year my little sugar dumplin. Hello sweetie 🥰🥰🥰 just got things squared away at Jenny and Mikey's,what a night !!! Drinking,shots ,eats ,bbq,you name it we had it . I'll send you a group picture with my letter . I'll wait to get a good one and send it then . I asked Brianna and allana if they would like to write you and they said yes. After they wrote it they both got really sad,and I felt like it was my fault,and I know it wasn't. I took allana and Brianna asideand tried to explain what was attempting.  I'll be leaving and get home by noon. I got lots to do and need to get home. I'm thinking about having prime rib tomorrow. I'll make it and eat some for you . 
Love always and forever
DAD 

Good morning baby. Well it's been almost 4 months since I've not had you I'm my physical life. You'll always be in my heart ❤️❤️💜💜 and memories. I still miss the hell out of you. It's almost the end of the year and it will be 2023 , can u believe that shit . Xmas morning was really difficult. I broke down pretty bad and Hellena give me a shoulder to cry on . Everyone has had alot of support giving to me since then . I hope this year there is a little peace and quiet. You know when I get these feelings about something and it usually comes true ,well I doy feel that right now. I have to go sweetie and I'll talk to you later. Love 💕💕😘😘 you forever sweet baby.
DAD 

Good morning my love 💕💕. Well Xmas is over and time to get back to work. It will be a 4 day week, this week and next. A little vacation or sort. Got home yesterday and turned the water back on ,it was on 10 minutes before I realized that moms sink busted and water was In my room before I shut it off . Brian is here and I need to go . I 💕 you sweetie and miss you
DAD 

Good morning baby and merry Christmas. I'm at Hellena s house , and actually slept pretty good considering your not here and not in my bed . Xmas Eve was filled with lots of people and family. We ate good food and I got a few present s from everyone. You know we hardly bought for us and tried to buy for others and the kids ,but it was really a different way this year . Lots of love and closeness today. I'm supposed to meet my buddy from highschool this morning,but he hasn't called yet . Maybe he's nervous after a these years, I know I am . Kristan and Joseph got me the cologne I've been wanting . We tried to buy me some the weekend before you passed ,and you know me ,I didn't want to spend the $ on myself. If I could only turn back time and wish you were still here I would buy you whatever you wanted but of course I can't. So I'm left here and will continue to keep our memories alive thru my my heart and soul. I left the pups at home and I think about them since I left . You know they are not used to being alone . Now sometimes they will have to be alone just like I am . Good thing is the reunion every day when I get home is met with clean up and lots of love 💕💕. Sweetie please keep me in your ❤️ and I'll talk to you later
Love 💕💕
DAD 

Hey sweetie 🥰🥰🥰 just got to Hellena s hour a few hours ago. Played down and took a nap. Up early this morning to get here. I was laying there in bed listening to everyone and thought about you. If you were here I know you wiy just hold these little ones an wouldn't let go. I pictured you coming in room and telling me how much u love those kids . It's like you were really there. Leaning over me and scratching my back and then laying next to me wanting me to hug on you and warm you up by body heat. Baby I really love 💕💕💕 and miss you alot . But glad to be here around family. I talked to my buddy from highschool and we're going to have coffee in morning after he gets off . We are going to have dinner with Hellena tonight and Lonnie dinner tomorrow night. It'll be fun . I'll leave early on Monday morning. I'll let you go now sweetie and I'll talk to you tomorrow. Love 💕💕💕 you sweetie! 
DAD 

Hello my love 💕💕. Sitting at store and decided to text you . It's getting close to Xmas day . It's now 5 days and I'm sure going to miss you sweetie not being here. This will be the first Xmas with out you. It's going to be a little hard not having you around for holidays and Xmas day. I know you always looked forward to this time of year . It's always a spotime for the kids and grandkids. I know that things change all the time. Some for good and some not so good. Regardless they will change. Going on a week now since Im trying to change my out look on things and try to put a positive spin on my loneliness. I know things like this will always come around and there's nothing to be done about it. There are alot of things I would change we did or didn't do in the years we were together. Well I can't change those things that are the past ,just try to do better on something's and offer wisdom to people and especially tough couples. Sharing our experiences with others might change things for them ,and like anything else , hopefully they will extend to others . I love 💕💕💕 you sweetie so much and I really miss you and will continue to do so . Please watch over me and give me guidence and support every day until I can be with you again . I know there are millions of people that are going thru this and I pray for their hearts 💕💕 to ease up in the pain there are going thru . If you were sitting here ,you would make sure I knew that the right thing to do is remember the good thing in life we met together and try not to be down on myself that your not here to physically talk to . I Love 💕💕💕 you sweetie and will always miss you more than you know . Love 💕💕💕
DAD 

Good morning baby. I'm sitting at gas station this morning thinking about you ,as always,and have lots of things I want to tell you ,but limited space provided. I sent Bella a few things for Christmas. A gift card to an ice cream store and a gift card with$ on . That way she can get and pick out what she wants . I addressed it from papa Dell and grandma Kathy. Talked to Sherri about that and she's ok with that . I told her I really wanted to keep in her life ,for you, as much as possible. I know you would be sending things if you were here,so I got your 6 and will continue this as much as I can . It's been years since I have had to buy for little girls. But you know me if I got $ and kids to buy for , I usually go all out . I haven't even heard from Devin or Zoe since you passed . That's ok,but a text ever so often would be nice . Not sure why they don't stay a little closer . I'm going to corpus for Christmas and I've decided to leave pups here and fortify the house with food ,water and plenty of pads . I thought about taking them, but it will be hard to care for them at Lina's house . Don't want them to pee on stuff or scratch walls up and need replacement. Hellena invited them and she said she will fix anything the mess up ,but I would be devastated if they did. It's best if I just leave them well sweetie like I said in the beginning of this chat ,I don't have much room to keep talking. Just know like always that I love 💕 💕💕💕😘 you sweetie beyond the time I'll have left on this earth and I'll see you when it's my time . I'm doing pretty well, just taking day by day . Love you so so so much.
DAD 

Hey sweetie!! Going on 5 the day of doing what I told you I would try to get better at. Someone told on the phone today that I sounded pretty good ,so I guess it's working. It's hard trying not to feel sorry for myself,but we both know that doing that is not good for me. You were always the one to worry about what would happen if I didn't change things and get on meds to help me to keep me on this earth with you a Little longer . Well it didn't work out that way did it sweetie. I'm so ,so sorry that your not here anymore,but I still say I would not wish this feeling on you. It's really lonely without you. If it was me that went first ,I know for a fact that you would have been devastated. It's a gut  and heart wrenching thing to go thru. I love 💕 you so much I would endure any pain for you ,just to protect you from this lonely time . I will keep looking for absolution. I don't want to ever ,ever forget what I have in my memory or my heart. I love and miss you sweetie so much. If I haven't told ,I'm taking you to your final place at spring break. Wish for beautiful weather. I say that , because you know spring break in corpus,You never know how it's going to be. So sweet,I'll talk to you later. I love and miss you more than you know.Love you!! 
DAD

Hey my sweet little sugar cookie,how's things in heaven. I'm sure they are ok . Baby I'm on my 4th day of trying to put your absence in a positive place . It's so hard not to have you around. It's still feels really strange not seeing you . Sometimes when I went out of town for two weeks for work ,I couldn't wait to call you when I got off work and back at the hotel . Well it's al.ost like that , but I have no number for you up there . That's why I text you . It does really help. I've put the radio on Xmas music and do my usual sing along ,but the only difference is that some of them songs make me really choke up and cry like a little baby after mama leaves me at daycare. I'm trying everything I know right now to stay positive and keep my chin up and get out more and other things. It's hard but I know I can do it. Again ,it's hard not knowing that you are ok. We all know your are doing well and being taken care of by lots of family and friends,both in prayers and at the big reunion up there . I talked to Tommy this morning and told him to give you a hug and tell u I miss you , I'm sure that's allowed. It's a little over a week until Christmas and the first in almost 40 years that we won't physically be together. It will be extremely hard and lonely without you. I think goin to corpus will help some, being with family. All right sweetie 🥰🥰 I love you and miss you. I'll talk to you later. 
DAD 

Hello my lovely lady! How are you this morning, thinking of me as much as I am of you. Well it happened again, I was officially a crybaby this weekend. I laid in bed and did almost nothing . It's hard sweetie,harder than you can imagine. I've talked to several people this weekend, crying on their shoulder, but I just had no one to turn to ,so I spread my heart out to several people. I'm going to stop by Mary s today and if I feel like it I'm going to sit and talk to her. As you know she knows what I'm going thru because she had this kind of experience with Frank. I also talked to Tommy's wife, holly. Poor girl has visited Tommy a few times at funeral home. He was a good friend and he will be missed. She's having a rough time of this . She told me that she was talking to him one second and not the second after that . Totally unexpected. I know what she's feeling. I just wish if I had a second chance I would hold you and refuse to let you go , hoping it would change the out come . I'm going to try to go to the celebration of life for Tommy on Wednesday. I know holly needs all the support she can get, cause it's not going away any time soon. I need to get on road. I love 💕 aymiss you so much sweetheart I can't hardly function. Life is so unfair and cruel . I'll talk to you later sweetie 🥰🥰, just know there is not enough tears or sorrow that will fix my heart 💜💜❤️❤️. Love you . 
DAD 

Hey sweetie, sorry I haven't talked to you in a while , slots been going on and I'm sure you understand. I think I have been feeling sorry for myself lately and just been down in the dumps. I've just been missing you so much sweetheart 💋 and have been ot dealing with it very well. The holidays are tearing my heart ❤️ up knowing that I can't spend it with you. Sometimes it's just so damn hard not having you here .  I'm thinking about going to corpus for Xmas to be with Kristan and the the rest of my family. I think it will do me some good to get away from the house for awhile. Lately all I do is sleep and watch Tvand that's about it . I can't even think about not having you around for the rest of my days on this earth. I know that you feel my heart hurting because your not here . Sweetie,please help me get thru the rest of my days with out you. Please put your heart beat into mine and help me understand why I can't spend my days with you not here. I just want to give up and be with you ,but I know that it's not my time yet and I still have things to tay care of . I just wish I could figure out what my purpose is now that your not by my side . So if you can some how get a sign or message to me , however, please do and tell what I should do . I'm running out of space,but just know that I have and will always love 💕 you from the deepest parts of my soul and whether you beside me or not that will never change. I love 💕 and miss you sweetie 🥰🥰.
DAD
 

Good morning my love 💕💕, I'm not sure if I told you about Tommy. He's up there next to you and I need you to guide home if needed . He passed last Friday at home . Holly was with him and he wasn't alone . Baby it really sucks with all these deaths of friends and people close to me . Tommy was a real inspiration after you had passed and I hope that you can guide home along to wherever he's supposed to go. I'm not there yet and I don't even know if guidence is even needed. If it is do your best to help him get aquanted with things. Thingy down here are really testing my faith in God or Jesus. It's not fair as I see it that these things are the way they are ,but I guess it's for itsown reasons . I think I'm going to corpus for Xmas and get away from the house for a while. I think I'll take pups with me so mom doesn't have to worry ,unless she volunteers to watch them . Well sweetie I need to go and u 💕💕😘😘 you more than you'll ever know . Take care of Tommy
Love and miss you 
DAD

Hey sweetie,I got some bad news . I'm sure you know or have known that tommy is not with us anymore. He died of a heart attack yesterday. Damn sweetie I now hurt not only for you but him and holly . What the hell is going on in this world . We are losing friends and loved ones rapidly. Tommy was one of the few guys that was really a true friend and always there to help in any way he could . I need to get in touch holly and give her my condolences. It will be from the heart , because I know what it feels like. When are we going to get a break with all this death that is so close . Sweetie,please watch over him and give him guidence up there since you have a little experience. I was going to write you this morning on other things but unfortunately we are talking about this. Baby,I love you and miss you more than ever . Please take care of Tommy and tell him how much we love you and him 
DAD

Hey little love 💕💕💕 button. Laying here thinking about how much I miss you and still wondering why you were taken from me so soon. It still feels like it's a dream still and I'm going to drive up and see u sitting outside on front porch. Then a rush of reality sets in .DAMN!!¡!! I know I've been neglecting talking to you everyday,and no excuses. I would rather tell you in person but that's never going to happen,ever!! I miss you more than you know. I don't ever want to forget our life together,but I hope things get easier as time goes on. I really hope you are ok and and thinking about me and somehow guiding me to peace in my heart's and acceptance of you not being here next to me. Thanksgiving was a real test of my strength and perciverece. All the family we had here was a much needed welcome. Everyone said it was a day to remember. Just so you know I worked my ass off for our dream of having people in our new kitchen. It did mighty good. I'm going to have to start working weekends again now that thanksgiving is over. I need to keep our savings account thriving. I put pretty flowers on your picture that come off your sunburst rose bush . They match your smile and beautiful eyes. I remythe day I first met you. I was so scared and nervous about dating an older woman. I wasn't sure if I was the man you were looking for ,but after 36 years the question was definitely answered. Got to go now baby, I love you so very much and miss you too. 
DAD 

Good morning baby,how's it going this morning? I needed to write you this morning, because something was telling me to. The big day was a success according to all I've talked to . Lots of work and planning from lots of people to make it the success it was . I talked to Hellena and Kristan about coming down for Xmas . She said I could bring the dogs ,but I'm not sure that will be an option . I really don't want to ask you mom to watch them . Not really sure what her plans are yet . It would be nice to get away from house for a few days. Even if I don't do anything,it would be nice to just get away. It helps if I'm around people during these first holidays with out my sweetie here . I'm positive that this feelings I feel will not go away ever, only just gets a little easier as time goes by. I know I keep saying this ,"I still can't believe your not here anymore* ,will be a response that I'll have for sometime now . Well sweetie I need to let you go and I'll talk to you tonight. I love you and miss you so much sweetheart 💋💋 and I'll never not miss you and never wish you weren't here .
DAD 

Good morning baby, sorry I've been short on messages. We made it thru the big day we have both dreamed about ever since we decide to remodel house . The kitchen was all we expected it to be . There was plenty of room for 6-8 people in there at once . It was really nice to see this idea of ours to open up the kitchen and install the type of windows you planned. There were 23 people in here and I had to put some in the garage. We have a group picture with all attendees in it . I cooked and worked my butt off . Squeek ,Kristan, Hellena and all others pitched in to make it happen. It is really still not the same without you sweetie. I know you would of just fell in love with the babies that were here . I know how you love little ones and how you wish you could take care of them ,like the mommy you are. The pups were a little confused with all the people here ,but they did pretty good considering. MJ snapped a few times at Jordan,just because she got too close to his face . He doesn't mean it ,it just all that was going on made him really uneasy. I want to give both the girls allana and Brianna a Barbie doll you put it the china cabinet,just didn't want to do it in front of everyone. It's a little more personal and I didn't feel letting everyone know what I do . I know there old enough to keep it in memory of you instead of playing with it . Well sweetie thank you for watching over this event and I'll need you to help me get thru this Xmas and other days that are difficult. . Well baby I'm not going to do alot today and just get rested up for a long week. Now that thanksgiving is over I need to get overtime in and help out . They understood I needed to be off to get things ready for all the people visiting. Now it's time to pay back my appreciation. I need to get off and get busy doing nothing today. Sweetie I love you so so much and still can't believe your not here. It's still like it's a dream or something and I'll wake up and all will be ok . Good bye baby !! Love 
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Hey my sweet little sugar cookie, how's it going . Late happy Thanksgiving. I'm sorry I haven't talked in a few days , just been real busy with all the folks that were here. Mary and Allissa wasn't able to make it. She wasn't feeling very good . That's ok , she just wanted to come over for you. It was a great success. A little tight for the amount of people, but it worked out .  Lots of food and family. We got a group picture and made sure you were in it. Your mom helped alot as well as everyone else. It was definitely strange not having you around. Kim's baby and Davids baby would have kept you really busy. I know you , you would have been al over these kids this weekend. One has little curls you would loved. Well sweetie I'm really tired . Going to sleep
I love 💕💕💕 you sweetie
DAD

What's up my sweetie. Finally settling down for the night . Been a real long day. Started at 4:30 when I couldn't sleep anymore. We only had 11 people here tonight and it seemed crowded. Wait till tomorrow, 25 should be real interesting. Lol. Well sweetie sweetie I'll make it short, pretty tired and I am responsible for lots of guest tomorrow. Love you sooooooo much 
DAD 

Well sweetie it's one day away from what's going to be one of the best thanksgiving we will ever have . The only thing and I mean the only thing is that would make it perfect is that if you were here. It will be the first time that we won't be to get her and that really hurts my heart 💜💜❤️❤️. I love and miss you so very much I can barely stand it. Just talking to you makes my whole body ache with love . I'm crying my eyes out . I still can't believe that your not here anymore. Please help me sweetie 🥰 get thru this weekend. I was hoping that keeping myself busy and my mind off of your absence, would be a little easier,but believe me it's not working so well. I have to put on a good face for the unbelievable amount of family and friends that will be in our somewhat remodeled home and kitchen. I know you wanted so much to show off what we have accomplished,but I'll have to be your stand in . Believe me sweetie I have your back . I will make sure to tell how proud you are of are unfinished accomplishments. I put your newly made box on the mantle with your book and picture. Your right next to pops and his flag . What an honor for all of us to be in the presence of Love and family. Maybe you can help watch over everything going on . Sweetie I'll talk to you later and I'll keep you updated on the next 2days events . I love you to the moon and back sugar dumplin and will definitely have you in my heart 💜💜❤️❤️. 
DAD 

Hey my little dumplin pie, sugar cookie 🍪. How's things today ? My last day before 5 days off . Seems like alot ,but it'll go quick like always . The longest part of off is not being able to spend the time off with you . I miss cuddling and talking to you about work . Your mom is doing a pretty good job with some things and others not so well.,but she's trying. Everyone is starting to come in Wednesday afternoon and I decided to take off . I might miss a few days of pay,but it'll be worth it . I'll work a little more to make up for not working for the past several weeks trying to get ready for this week. Even Marley and woolfrick are going to be here . I'll have to play switch out with them and the pups. They don't remember,but they will get a plate just like a family member,that they are. I just hope it goes.well . Just wish you were physically here,but I know if your able ,you will be looking down and guiding me to a successful day . Baby I know you understand how much I miss and love you , RIGHT!!!!. I need to go now sweetie and remember I'll see you soon enough and have our spot prepped up for my arrival. Love and kisses as always
DAD 

Hello my sweet little sugar plum. It's getting closer to Thanksgiving day. I didn't write you yesterday and I was going to wait till tonight.  Been really busy Saturday and today getting things done and planned out . Lots of folks coming and I believe we will focus on making this thanksgiving in your honor. And what a pleasy and honor that will be . I want things to go real good ,cause if you can't be here I want to make sure you are not forgotten. Steve came out of surgery amazingly. Got video today of him walking into the hallway. Sweetie if you put in a good word and this is the result of your influence, your amazing as you have always been . Not really sure how things work,I'm sure on alot of faith but glad he is doing much better . Don't think he will be out before Thanksgiving,but if he's not we will make sure that we get some food to them. Something else sweetie, your box was brought home today from moms church guy . We had him make you a pretty special box for your ashes to be put in   . It was made from some of your mom's wood she's been saving. We put your heart beat etched on sides and a little saying on top of the box . It's really special and it's perfect. It was really emotional putting your ashes In your new place until it's time bto take you home to corpus. I'll talk to you tomorrow night sweet and I love you so very much . By the way,I'm sure you knew or know that your mom's brother passed yesterday. Just wish we could get a break from death for awhile. Not sure how much more we can deal with. Again sweetie 🥰🥰 I love 💕💕💕 you so very much and miss something fierce.
DAD

Hey sugar pea, sorry I didn't talk to you last night. Just held phone in hand and just t it down and went to bed. Well it's the weekend and we lots to do tomorrow. Clean house, Wash clothes, and lots of stuff to get ready for Thanksgiving.  Really going to miss you being here sweetie. You know it's been 37 years of holidays and stuff,and it's going to be real difficult to deal with. But I really know that it's going to be ok , just going to take along time. I don't want to ever forget anything we went thru or experienced through out the many years . I hope your looking down and pushing me along to better feelings and understanding why it was you first and not me . As I said before, I would not want you to have to endure what I am now. I love 💕💕 you way too much. I'm going to go to grocery store tomorrow for groceries,so if you can send me a sign to get something for you to have  ,let me know . Well sweetie it's time to go to sleep and I'll talk to you later. LOVE you so so so much it hurts. I tear up when I write you ,but I really know it helps. Love 💕💕💕 you.
DAD 

Well good evening my love, 💕😘. Haven't started out with that one yet . Sure lonely here without you my little dumplin pie. The closer it gets to Thanksgiving,the more my heart 💜💜❤️❤️ hurts for you presence. It's sure going to be different without you here,but with all the people that will be here ,I'm not worried about being lonely. I went to visit Lonnie at the hospital today after work. Didn't get to see Steve,but that's ok . I told Lonnie that I'm sure he wasn't up for visiting and she seemed to agree. Anyways he had an MRI done while I was there and I'm sure all that moving around was painful for him. She showed me some x-rays of his spine . I'm not a Dr ,but what she explained it messed up . Hopefully after results they can decide a best course of action. Again sweetie,if you have any influence please help up there. Still have a lot to do before Thanksgiving,but I'm trying. That's alot of people's a cumin ya no . That's my white boy coming out. Well sweetie,need to go to sleep. It's another early morning. I love you a million sweetie and I'm sure missing you alot. I'll talk to you tomorrow 💕💕😘😘 
DAD 

Hey sweetie, just wanted to say hi. Didn't get to see Lonnie and Steve today after work , I hope she's not mad at me . I don't think so , but hope not . Had to take a couple of workers home today , unexpectedly. Tried to get over there and our before traffic ,you know how that is . If nothing comes out and hitsme , I hope to go tomorrow. Hellena might be up here to , she couldnt make it today,due to work. They ran some tests on his back x-ray,mri ,ct , maybe all. He's in alot of pain. I'll text Lonnie tomorrow and see if it's ok and would Steve even want visitors. If not I get it and that's ok I think I can understand why . At least I can give Lonnie some support,I'm sure she is needing a shoulder to lean on, and she was there for me with you . Well sweetie I need to go and I'll talk to you tomorrow.💋💋💜💜💜❤️ Love and miss you ,I wish you were here to go with me. Love 
DAD  

Hey baby,lying here thinking about things and relaxing watching TV. Cooked dinner tonight and had the same Tuscan chicken as last night. I was cooking and your mom said that she liked what we had last night and I said good cause we're having it again. Didn't cook it all last night so I cooked it again. I'm leaving to another job tomorrow and getting away from that night mare . Problem is I have to get up at 2:30 and be there by 4:30 . Some trade off right . Steve , Lonnies husband had an accident and fell at home . They moved him to MD Anderson up here and he will be in there a couple of weeks . I'm asking you to pray for him and Lonnie and touch them with your spirit of good will. Our family needs a good turn of luck ,so please if you have any influence please help. Well sweetie it's getting closer to the big event ,and I can't wait. I'm ready to get to cooking the food and having everyone else pitching in with their own styles of cooking. Well sweetie it's getting late and need to go night night. 2:30 will come mighty early. Sweetie I love you and miss you so so much it still hurts my soul and heart like crazy. I feel like someone is stepping on my chest ,but I know it's my heart 💜💜❤️❤️ aching for you to be with me one more time, at least long enough to tell you how much I love and miss you sweetie. Good night baby ❤️❤️❤️💜💜💋💋
DAD 

Hey my little lemon drop,what's happening?? I know where did I come up with that one. No your not sour , just another nick name for you sweetie. Well it was another busy day. It seems since you've been gone ,I get a whole lot less time for myself. I guess I took you for granted on what you did and I'm sorry for that . It's either work or house work. It does take alot of effort and dedication to keep up the house work around here. I'm just like the Energizer bunny and I guess that good because it keeps my mind occupied most of the day. Still have your picture that Kristan picked out setting next to me on my night stand. Your so beautiful and I really miss you sweetie. I got up this morning and had coffee and bacon and a few silver dollar pancakes for breakfast then got started . I cleaned the kitchen,dining room and kitchen floor s . Cleaned out the fridge,it has a residue of baking soda on from mom cleaning it ,also went to home Depot and Lowes looking for the patio set and they didn't have shit . It's on sale alright but you have to order it online. Went to HEB and got a few things , cooked asparagus and that chicken ferol cooked for me one time  . It's been a long day but I got a lot done . Just trying to make this thanksgiving a well planned event . I hope that all will talk about the good things that we remember about you ,and honor you as much as possible ,but no intent to cry all day . It will be a piece missing because your not going to attend but I'll eat a bite of everything you liked,just for you . I just wish it wouldn't hurt so damn bad remembering things we've done on holidays when you were here . I got a few people staying in your room and I'm sure you wouldn't mind . It David, Jordan and the baby. He's 1-1/2 now . I told David he'll have to be careful with the pups . Well sweetie I need to go and I'll talk to you tomorrow. As always I love to the moon and back a million times  💜💜💋💋❤️❤️🥰🥰💕💕🙏. Love DAD 

Hey my little chica dee, how's you doing ? Hi sweetie, worked a half a day today in Columbus. I need to finish up a few things on paper tomorrow and turn it in Monday morning. I stopped be that new BEL furniture store on 45 at 1960 . You we've been wanting to get a new living room suit for some time. They got some pretty good deals . A nice whole sectional with a rocking recliner, it's like leather,I'm sure it's not for the price . I need it to be easy maintenance to keep clean because of these animules !!! I know we can't afford real leather, just something nice and comfy. Know telling how many people will visit to warrant expensive furniture. We always try to shop on the lower side of the scale,but not to have to dress to impress,simple for simple people. I do have our enterior decorators working on a patio set ,to help out with out first ever big crowd for T--Day dinner, can't wait. 25 people if all come. I went by Mary s today to help her and the little tired bought me a world series  Astros shirt . It's really nice and she got my size correct. I think she tries to do what you would do for me . She misses you alot and I think that's her way of showing she does miss you ,by trying to take care of her best friends husband,and that's ok with me .  I'm going to take mom with me to home Depot to look at the patio stuff I was telling you about . Just need to solve a few seating issues for our dinner. Our thoughts about having enough room for several people cooking in the kitchen at same time is about to be tested. I really wish you were here to see it ,but don't worry sweet ,I'll definitely tell you about it. Well baby I'll let you go and I'll talk to you tomorrow. Love you a million times and to the world s end . I miss you sweetie. Love❤️❤️🥰🥰💋💋💜💜
DAD 

Well hello there sweet thing . I made it thru a very tough and really long week. It felt like it would never end,but it did,and a good to as well. The guys on my job di pretty good this week and I treated them to lunch at a Mexican restaurant. They couldn't believe that their foreman actually took them to lunch. You know how I feel about my guys,if they work hard for me I treat them with respect and appreciation. You know it always makes you feel good when someone appreciates you and shows it. I have to go to Columbus tomorrow for a 1/2 day and then need to take the power washer to repair shop . I tried to start up all the power equipment in garage and that one was the only one I couldn't get started . I need to clean the patio again before Thanksgiving. I believe I'm going to invest in a patio set , mainly to have a place to sit people at Thanksgiving supper. It's going to one for the record books , supposed to be 25 people here . DAMN sweetie that's alot of folks. I told the pups to be on their best behavior. Baby girl looks at me and I can guess what she is thinking. "Papa they better be on their best behavior or me and bubba will bite their ass" . Grandmas not here and we have to do the protecting. It was funny. Well sweetie I'm going to let you go no w and I'll talk to you tomorrow. Going to see Mary on way home after work. I'll give her a hug for you. I know she'll appreciate it . She and Allissa are coming for Thanksgiving. It'll be one for the record books. Good night baby and I love and miss you very much 
DAD 


Well baby it's been 2 months since my world has been turned upside down . I been really missing you alot the past few days. I don't like feeling like this at all. There is a hole somewhere and I can't close it,fill it or put a lid on it,it just keeps me wanting to fall in. I don't know how to fix this sweetie. You know I always seem to know how to make things work and always find a way to fix things,and that's because I had you here for encouragement. Knowing you were always in the middle of me and my decision s were to fix it because of you. Love 💕💕 is a great thing but it's also a double edge sword. It can cut deeper than you know. I still have to say that I would not ever want you to go thru what I'm going thru now. I love you that much to admit I'm happy to take on the heart ache for you being gone and for you not to have to endure what I'm going thru now. I'm staying really busy at work and that helps alot . I'm going to have to do this one day at a time. If I think about a week ahead it seems like a lifetime that I'm going to be missing you. Maybe takeout one day or one hour at a time is best. I need to get up early sweetie so I'll talk to you tomorrow. I love you so much sweetheart 💋💋💜💜💕💕❤️❤️
DAD 

Kathy’s 4th Grade Signature.  

Here is a piece of paper from my Childhood Scrapbook. 
We would all exchange signatures on the last day of school. 

I thought your family would enjoy seeing Kathy’s 4th Grade Woodlawn Elementary School signature 

Thoughts and prayers,

Lisa Douglas Rux 
Corpus Christi  Childhood Friend 
Lisa Douglas Rux

Several of us Woodlawn Elementary School kids heard of Kathy’s passing.  
We send our thoughts and prayers to the family. 

This picture is of Kathy in Mrs. Ashby’s 4th Grade Class.   

Kathy is standing next to Mrs. Ashby.  
Karen Gentry Howry is next to Kathy.  
On the bottom row is Lisa Douglas Rux( 2nd from left and Deena Parish (4th from left). 

Love from CC Woodlawn Elementary and Haas Jr Hugh kids 
Lisa Douglas Rux, Deena Parish, Karen Gentry Howry, Larry Steinocher, Sammy Monreal and Denise Walton. 

(Not pictured is Larry Steinocher, Denise Walton and Sammy Monreal) 

Good morning my love 💕💕. I said that I would talk to you at night time before be ,that way I would have a day of events to talk to you about. Well I'm really having a hard time the last couple of days and I need your shoulder to cry on . I know I'm supposed to be the strong one and be able to push thru this idea and reality that your not here . I'm supposed to protect you in all situations,and I sometimes I feel I didn't do my part in protecting you. I know the reality that I couldn't have done anything to prevent this otherwise I would of been right there . I still feel like you were trying to reach out to me when this thing happened to you and I wasn't there. That weighs on my heart ❤️💜 something awful. With the holidays around the corner it makes it even harder. The put me on a job that is behind and messed up really bad and I'm supposed to pull a rabbit out of the hat and miraculously make it all better . I know I can do anything I set my mind to and accomplish the task at hand . It only put more pressure on me without you there for encouragement. It seems right now that I won't make it thru without my sweetie listening to me when I have a bad day. You were always there and understood me without judgement. You offered so much being my wife , soulmate lover , confidant and all other things that are fitting . Baby I miss you so very much and not sure how to deal with it . They say move on , don't worry, and all the other shit I'm supposed to be . What they don't realize is they are not going thru this like I am . Well sweetie I have to go ,just know I love you more and more everyday your not here. Please help me get thru every day . Love you now and forever.❤️❤️💜💜💕💋💋
DAD 

Well sweetie it's almost thanksgiving,lots of people are coming. Its really going to be hard not having you around for holidays . Just knowing I can't share holidays with you on a personal basis is not sitting well with me at all. Sweetie we had lots of years together. I'm still mad as hell that you won't be here ,but I know your looking after me and looking out for my well being. Trying to plan this thanksgiving here is really something I want to share with you and I can't . Baby it's hard every day to get up and go about my day knowing that your not going to be home when I get off work. Sometimes I fell like what's the point if I don't have it to share with you. But I know I have to keep on keeping on . I'll try to keep up a good appearance and attitude like I'm supposed to. I'm headed to bed now sweetie and I'll talk to you later. Love 💕💕💕 you like you would never realize. Prayers for me sweetie. Love
DAD 

Good morning baby. I'm looking for your support today . Yesterday was a " not give a shit "day . Please help me get a better attitude towards things in general . I'm not sure why I'm in this funk , but I don't see like it . It might be I need a week off from driving, worrying Or whatever. Tommy is texting in ,I love you sweetie and I miss you so so much . I need you here to talk to . Love 
DAD 

Hey babe, I'm watching the " Cobbler ' with Adam Sandler. Really funny . Having a bad  day today. I'm taking over another foremans job today. Not liking too much. I'm sorry ewey I'm just not in mood to talk. I love 💕 eand miss you so much . 
DAD

Good morning my love, just sat down for breakfast at Denny's. Going to meet Kristan and Joseph so we can go to the Renaissance festival. Last time we went was with Kyle stowers . It's going to be strange without you going. I hope I'm not a third wheel ,but I can't imagine going oa a date with someone else . First thing I wouldn't have the slightest idea how to act and another thing I don't think I would be someone that would another woman would find attractive or even give me the time of day. Apparently when you first saw me at BDOB you found and saw something in me that attracted you to me . I would have and never wish to change the events in our life . The good ,bad , indifferent and all that made us stay together all these years . It never has crossed my mind to even look or think about dating someone else . You were made for me and I really really miss you company and closeness. Well my food just showed up ,and I want to eat while hot . So much to tell u today ,so I'll talk to you after the festival. Maybe lady gadiva will let me ride her horse . I love you so much sweetheart 💋💋😘😘💋💋 and I'll talk to you tonight.
DAD

Hello my love, a few things to tell ya tonight . I picked your book up today on my way home . I started to read a few things I wrote and of course I started bawling. It is really put together well. I let your mom read it ,andi hope I didn't write anything she takes personal. It's not meant to judge ,it's meant to just talk like we would if you were next to me . Just conversations . Mary thought she lost daisy today but it was a false alarm. I forgot to tell u Lonnie was here in town with Steve and ended up having a wreck on the 290 hov . Nothing hurt but the car , thank God. I went and picked them up and too them back to Rice Village. Steve still had another appointment with Dr. I think they left today . Well baby I getting ready for bed so I'll say goodbye tonight and I'll talk to u tomorrow . I love you so much sweetheart 💋💋😘😘 and miss you too ,love 
DAD 

Hello sweetie, I got some good news I think . You know we remodel some of the house ,and the kitchen was one of those areas that we wanted done especially. You we thought about the open concept,so we could sit and watch all the people in the kitchen at once without being crowded. Well we are going to put it thru the rest this year for Thanksgiving. I think I mentioned it before ,but as of today there will be 20-25 people's here at the Withrow s . It saddens my heart that you will not be here to see it . If it's true I hope you will look down on us and thank that the family is together. Old ,new and all in-between. I've invited Mary and allissa as well and I really hope they come . My first holiday that your not here in37 years ,I just can't put my mind around that idea. So sweet,,please look in on me and make sure I do this right . I'll see you tomorrow and remember that I love so much and miss you too. 
DAD 

Hey sweetie what's going on tonight? Everytime I look up your obituary to write you ,I see your pretty face smiling at me. I know it's me cause I took the picture. It's one month from Thanksgiving and so excited about the full house we going to have . I count adout 15-20 . WOW ,now they all want to show up !!! Lol. I'm just kidding ,just wish it would be one more , a most important part of the family. Well I can sure wish ,but I know the answer . I do plan on trying to make sure that you will be the topic of most conversation's. It will be one the hardest and roughest day , emotionally that I've probably going to go thru since you episode. I hope you don't mind that I refer to the events that took you from me as "the episode" . It's easier that saying it out loud . It hurts less for me if you know what I'm saying,and I know you do. T-DAY should be a hit . There will be two babies here and I know your going to be sad that your not able to hold them . You were always loving little babies and always wanting to hold and take care of them . I know I wasn't around when misty was little,but you took care of both those girls with the motherly love that all moms should have . If you don't understand what I'm saying,I'll tell you . Baby you were and exceptional mother and an amazing, loving wife that any man would be lucky to have you . But their loss was sure my inheritance in life . I'm running out of time and space sweetie. I love you and miss you ever so much .
DAD 




OBITUARY

Kathy Lynn Withrow

May 13, 1962 – September 9, 2022

Calvary Hill Funeral Home & Cemetery

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